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TOBY'S TALE OF TERROR .

2008-11-20T17:09:00.002+08:00

HI .
It's been a long time since i last viewed this blog , let alone post an entry on this blog .
BUT NEVERMIND .
Anyway the holidays are here already and im really bored and im now on a quest to fight flabs / fats / unused calories .
So instead of usual 'mahjong kakis' as quoted by most singaporeans , im looking for JOGGING KAKIS !!!
SO WHO WANTS TO JOIN ME IN MY CONQUEST .
BUT I'LL ONLY JOG WITH PEOPLE I KNOW QUITE WELL BECAUSE THEN I WILL HAVE MORE REASONS TO TALK IF NOT PLEASE FORGET ABOUT IT .

A handful of keepsakes , to always reminisce .

2008-08-16T11:54:00.003+08:00

HEYA HOMIES .
First of all , i'd like to request all of you stop visiting this blog of mine , considering i've already diverted all of my attention to my private blog and it'd be just so redundant for you guys to read this deceased blog of mine .
So give it up , thanks !
Anyway , the only reason why i cant bear to close down this blog is because , i think my layout's just too cool to resist and i love it so .
Furthermore , this blog contains so much keepsakes and memories , which i'll always want to relieve , no matter good or bad .
Bad memories like the other time Leonard found out about my blog , oh god , i had wanted to annihilate beechan for telling him my blog but in the end , im glad i didnt lose my cool , because BeeChan is a nice person and it'd be wrong to just , you know , freak out on her .
Good memories like the other time i got so infatuated with Ikuta Toma .
Sigh , I LOVE YOU , A-CHOCOLATEBAR !
I dont mean to neglect you , it's only because im scared some other intruders (like , ahem , as aforementioned) would read my blog , so i opted for a private blog .
SHIT , I JUST LOVE YOU SO .
You mean much to me , and you'd better believe it .
And thats just why imma leave you just the way you are , because it pains me to so have you taken away .
A little melodramatic , but you know what i mean .
A-chocolatebar IS NUMBAH ONEZ , YA HOMIEZ .
Sigh , we've been through thick and thin together , dearest .
You stood by me as my closest friend , and as a listening ear .
I have no idea just how to express all this gratitude that's inside of me .
Im so glad i hadnt decided to give up on you back then , after that incident .
THANKS FOR BEING SUCHA STRONG CHOCOLATEBAR , I LOVE YOU .

BIRTHDAY WISHES .

2008-07-24T21:37:00.001+08:00

HI PEE-PEE-ELL !
THANKS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES , WILL TRYTA REPLY YOU GUMMIES ASAP .
YAY !

Time and again .

2008-07-12T17:13:00.002+08:00

HI FELINES .
So sorry i havent been updating for a long time in this public blog of mine , HEHEHEH .
Decided to keep things privatized , and i tend to keep things that way !
So , yeah , alot of things have happened for the past few weeks or even a month , i've seriously lost track of how long i've not been updating here .
Oh yes , i apologise if i've not invited you to my private blog !
Okay , there's nothing much left to say already !
Feel free to remove me from your linking section .
I dont care , HAHAHAHA .

The stop sign .

2008-06-22T17:21:00.002+08:00

HIHIHIHIHIHIHI !
Im gonna stop updating here for the time being and divert my attention to my soon-to-be new private blog !
I'll probably consider inviting my very very very very very very very (you get my drift) close friends !
Filled with only my heartfelt words HEEEEHEEEE .
Okay i sound spastic .
OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY , BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE .

In 5 , 4 , 3 , 2 , 1 .

2008-06-21T18:47:00.002+08:00

HI PEOPLE .
I BRING YOU GUYS BAD NEWS .
I HAVE DECIDED TO CLOSE DOWN MY SITE !
At least for now .
Im just too lazy to keep up the updates , HEH-HEH .
ANYWAY .
YOU LISTEN HERE , FAT HIPPO .
Stop being such a hypocritical lowlifer , constantly plagarising others .
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO PLAGARISING MY SHEELA .
I tell ya , i cant wait to slap your big fat face .
What a fake , always putting on such heavy makeup in your photos , not to mention such heavy photoshopping .
GROSS .
I mean , being fat and ugly is still acceptable , BUT BEING A FUGGLER WITH ABSOLUTELY NO ORIGINALITY , namely you , IS TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE .
Bloody bitch of a hippopotamus , you .
YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU , IM REFERRING TO YOU .
At least have the courtesy to like , credit her or type out something like , "THANKS FOR THE TIP ON WHERE TO FIND THE MOVIE , YOU MA MAN" .
BUT WHAT DO YOU DO ?
COPY EVERYTHING MY SHEELA DOES / SAY AND JUST MAKE IT ALL SEEM LIKE YOURS .
BUGGER , /points out my cute little middle finger which measures 7.7 cm !
You ought to stay in the Normal Academic stream forever , or better , retain for a mighty four years , drop to the Normal Technical stream and forever have no future , HAHAHAHAHAHAHA .
OHMYGOD IM SIMPLY WONDERFUL , SO FULL OF WONDERFUL IDEAS !
Bitch of a hippo , /middle finger .

Not a breeze .

2008-06-17T17:22:00.003+08:00

Band practice was horrible today .
To me , that is .
I couldnt hit the high notes , i just totally messed up in Bossa Nova Breeze .
Thank goodness the seniors will be performing with us as well , or i seriously dont know how will i make it through the performance , except for Recess Rock , of course !
Recess Rock is such a simple and cute piece , Fifi and i just love it to the max !
Oh yes , Fifi is another Euphonium junior like me !
I think Sharifah senior saw me struggling with the higher notes , so she offered to help me !
And her techniques really worked !
But i seriously have no idea why i'll tend to tense up everytime we're getting ready to play a piece and i'll straightaway forget the techniques i was taught and as usual , i'll goof up big time .
-____- , maybe im really not cut out for the Euphonium .
I should have just chosen some other instrument , like , the Clarinet or something .
SOMETHING EASIER TO HIT THE HIGH NOTES WITH .
Okay i sound like a quitter , but im freaking tired and stressed out because the investure is nearing , and i still cant hit the high notes !
HOW AM I GOING TO PLAY THROUGH BOSSA NOVA BREEZE .
AHH , im in deep shit man .
I hope Sir doesnt try to hear us out one by one , or i am in serious deep shit .
Speaking of deep shit , I CANT BELIEVE LESSONS WILL BE RESUMING NEXT WEEK .
I kept thinking lessons would resume on the 1st of July , so i didnt really bother to do a single one of my holiday assignments , except for that dumb HeyMath thingy online .
The english assignments are quite okay , considering they're all essays and stuff , and not the mention there only two .
So , it should be a piece of cake .
As for maths , i'll just roughly rush through the whole thing and refer to my textbook should i forget any concepts .
These assignments are seriously nothing .
BUT WHAT'S SOMETHING ARE THE THREE PROJECTS !
One for Home Economics , one for Art and one for Design And Technology .
And the one for HE is kinda hard .
If it wasnt for Jane who informed me that the holidays would be ending this Sunday , i wont even be attending lessons for a whole week .
TALK ABOUT 'SOTONGS' .
Okay i'd better try to complete one essay tonight .
At least this way i'll be able to have more of a peace of a mind .
Well , by a percent maybe .
BYE PORKYPINES .

CHEENARIAN I TELL YA .

2008-06-16T21:22:00.002+08:00

Band practice was okay today .
Didnt really do much .
Will just have to relax more when blowing into the Euphonium , lest i produce horrid sounds with my constant squeezing .
ANYWAY .
I seriously should consider going for some skin surgery .
BECAUSE IM SICK OF PEOPLE CONSTANTLY GIVING ME THAT IS-SHE-MALAY-OR-WHAT LOOK .
JEEPERS .
I hate it when people do that .
I get so super pissed off .
But i wouldnt really mind if you ask me politely if im a chinese or something , cause i'd gladly reply you .
Then again , i cant really blame those nincompoops because i am kinda tanned .
BUT EVEN SO I STILL THINK I DO LOOK LIKE A DAMN CHEENARIAN OKAY .
IM CHINESE , CHEENARIAN , IM THE EMPEROR'S DESCENDANT , GET THAT .
Okay not entirely , considering my mom is thai so that makes me half-thai too .
Okay er , so , im kinda tanned because of my mom's nationality , and seriously , even with my tanned skin , i think i'll resemble either a chinese or a thai , man .
These people are just so sickening .
Maybe i should get those customized badges with my name on it and put it on wherever i go , so people will be able to see my surname CHEONG and know im clearly a chinese .
SERIOUSLY .
The things one does these days .

"Happee Jagabee"

2008-06-15T16:57:00.001+08:00

MEET MY LATEST OBESSION , CALBEEEE JAGABEEEEE !
OHMYGOD OHMYGOD , IT'S SO SALTY , IT'S A HOT FAVOURITE FOR A SALTFREAK LIKE ME .
HAHAHAHAHA .
I LOVE IT .
And apparently so does my sister because she finished mine !
)= !
Okay she's forcing me to go to Toa Payoh with her to get stocks for her upcoming online store !
She'll probably be using Livejournal , haha .
So do support her !
Why the hell am i asking you guys to support her ?
Okay nevermind , so , BYE !

What a day .

2008-06-14T20:40:00.003+08:00

I think im seriously bipolar .
Last night was horrible .
I kept getting sudden fits of anger and kept crying after each one .
And right after 20 seconds , i'd have another one .
And it kept continuing for about 6 times ?
-___- .
I hope i dont become another Britney .
ANYWAY !
Some class gathering it turned out to be today .
And i think Sylvia , Jeffrey , Huiying , Hafizah and i have every reason to be pissed .
Because only we showed up .
And it's seriously INCREDULOUS , because not a single organizer showed up .
Which really got me pissed because , HELLO ?
YOU ORGANIZED THIS , and yet you dont show up ?
If none of you can afford to show up , please do not waste other people's time , because it's not as if you're the only busy person in the world .
And over-sleeping is seriously too lousy an excuse .
Talk about having over thirty people to make it a success , and only 5 of us turned up .
-___- ?!
Well , at least we still had lots of fun !
We stopped over at Vista Point to get bubble tea because Jeffrey was being seriously thirsty , i dont know what's with him today because he was like a hippo , constantly craving for water , LOL !
So after which we went to the Macdonalds outlet at Civic Centre which was like very funny , because we kept teasing Jeffrey and Hafizah , and they seriously did look like a couple !
They wore black tops , blue jeans , slippers , and even carried slingbags !
OHMYGOD , HOW COMPATIBLE CAN TWO PEOPLE GET !
And Jeffrey even offered to treat Hafizah , :D !
Huiying was like telling me , "next time you wanna find a boyfriend , must find a nice guy like Jeffrey" , LOL !
But i did agree with her about Jeffrey being very nice , because he did treat Sylvia , Huiying and i to some KFC stuff .
Okay wait im moving too fast .
Back to Mac .
Sylvia and i were like asking Jeffrey to get two cups of plain water for us , and the plain water tasted like Colgate ?!
So we went to the 6th floor at Causeway Point for some camwhoring , and Hafizah left at about 2pm .
It was quite fun actually .
So after that we went walking round the whole of Causeway Point , dragging Jeffrey along to look at girl clothings .
Sylvia's mood was kinda low , but her mood gradually increased , which was a good thing !
After that bad happened , which kinda caused our moods to decrease .
Huiying and i were damn worried and all Jeffrey could think about was to attack their er , breasts ?
LOLOL !
Okay , he sort of did that .
So , er , we went to Vista Park afterwards !
AND IT WAS REALLY REALLY FUN !
Afterwards all of us proceeded home , while Huiying was walking with me and we were talking about primary school matters , HAHA .
Which was really nice , reminiscing primary school times .
Jeff had this crazy idea bout having one more lesson in primary school , which i thought was kinda cool .
I cant believe they're painting the school orange !
It looks so , revolting .
Anyway i've yet to shower down cause i just had a mega nap .
Shall end here !
BYE COWPOKES .

Screwed sluts .

2008-06-13T15:56:00.002+08:00

Fucking pissed off today .
So fucking pissed i actually cried .
Its either im depressed or im seriously bipolar -__- .
I hope my mood increases or i'll be losing my cool at every single person that comes my way , including my dad .
And i mean every single thing , because i just emptied a whole packet of cornflakes into the bin out of anger .
It's terrible because im wasting food just to appease my anger .
But i dont give a fuck .
Cause I AM PISSED .
Worthless sluts , i swear one day im going to make you go through twice what im going through now , you guys fucking mark my words .
How i feel like slowly cutting you guys apart right now .
And im fucking going to do it when i crack .

Pang of nausea

2008-06-13T09:33:00.002+08:00

HI PIGPOPS .
Just came back from an intensive jog at Mandai Tekong Park , is that you spell it ?
Ah well , im pretty sure im right , HAHA .
Okay anyway , my maid went with me , and , well , i cant say it's fun , cause all we did was to jog , and she was kinda lagging behind me so i couldnt really talk to her at all .
Well done , auntie !
:D !
But things got kinda bad afterwards .
We played the merry-go-round after i drank my water , and halfway throughout i felt seriously queasy .
I felt so nauseous , even sitting down didnt help .
So after i sat down for awhile , i stood up , and i did some heavy vomitting , -__- .
It's seriously painful , but it's also great , considering im clearing out all the previously consumed food , just that it's in a more painful way than clearing my bowels .
I wonder how do the bullimic survive !
I couldnt even stand the pang of nausea .
Sigh , im getting old .
Okay wait im not officially thirteen yet , so i cant really be considered old .
Or young .
Okay im a tween , not a teen !
But once my birthday arrives , which is near , i'll officially be deemed a teen !
So i can still proudly claim to be a child !
Except im more of a fully-grown child , that is , if you put me to comparison with a 5-year-old kid .
I must look rather spastic , cause here i am acting real kiddish beside a real kiddish kid .
How retarded can one get .
I really wouldnt like to know .
Okay so , im off to shop online , once again !
I so enjoy online shopping , especially since i can just google up any item i want and not have to walk around the mall and the shops , in search of what i really want .
And not to mention the queue to the changing room .
It gets quite ridiculous , since we're paying customers and yet we still have to wait .
It's like we're waiting to throw our money away .
That's dumb , seriously dumb .
So sometimes my dad gets pissed off and he'll go round giving the salesperson incharge of that certain area (poor thing) the bazooka and have everyone looking at us behaving so peculiarly .
Okay wait is there even a word called peculiarly , or is it just peculiar ?
Okay i dont care , as long as you catch my drift .
So , YA GIT ME ?
Okay yes , you do 'git me' .
Speaking of customers and services , i tell you , coffeeshops are getting to be very ridiculous these days .
A few days ago , my maid went to Lavender the whole day to do something bout her passport , so i was left alone at home , hungry .
So when she came back , she phoned me to ask me what i'd like for dinner , and as usual , i ordered CSF (CharSiewFan) , LOL !
And then when she did so , the nerve of that guy .
HE ACTUALLY SERVED ME DUCK RICE .
And whats worse is that the duck rice there is not even nice .
Imagine the torture on my stomach .
I mean , having been served the wrong dish is absolutely fine with me .
But being served a dish which i absolutely DO NOT like having , is certainly way off .
I sound like such a picky bitch but hey , IT'S TRUE .
I mean , as paying customers , we OUGHT to receive the best services .
And not just junk .
If they had some customer ratings stand , i tell you , I'LL GRAZE IT .
Incredulous man !
Lousy duck rice .
-_- .

Drowning in a pool of boredom

2008-06-12T18:09:00.002+08:00

Today has got to be absolutely the worst day of my life .
Why ?
Because it's downright boring , and not to mention my brother pissing me off real badly with his shuffle songs .
And whats worse is that he plays it so loud , i have no choice but to listen to them ?
And when i was watching TV , i asked him politely to turn down the volume , and you know what he said ?
He told me to use the earphones .
HELLO ?
YOU'RE BEING DOWNRIGHT ABSURD ?!
Obviously being 10cm away from the plasma tv is gonna blind me to death right .
I hope you really get lung cancer and die soon .
Judging by the way you're coughing so badly these days , im pretty sure your time is coming soon !
How inconsiderate of you .
You're not the only person at home okay , and neither are you the only person residing in Woodlands .
Fancy turning on the music so loud .
What makes i like listening to shuffle music THE WHOLE DAY LONG NON-STOP .
I mean , listening to it once in awhile is still acceptable okay .
BUT THIS ?
ABSURD , I TELL YOU .
It's outrageously atrocious .
I got so sick of the music , i almost thought i was gonna go grab a knife from the kitchen and stab myself .
WHAT THE HELL MAN .
PISSED OFF , OKAY .
-____- " .

AND ITS A TOUCHDOWN .

2008-06-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

My days of misery are over !
I finally popped that disgusting little pimple that's been perched on my nose for the past few months !
Ohmygod , the feeling is JUST SO INDESCRIBABLE .
I tell you , i felt so triumphant , so victorious .
I felt so free of a burden , it's as if i was given a whole new lease of life !
HAHAHA , BURN YOU , DISGUSTING LITTLE UGLY THING .
Although it was kinda painful when i popped it , and my eyes were filled with tears the whole time !
And please don't misunderstand , i didnt cry because of the pain , but because the pimple happened to be on my nose and it so happened that our noses happen to be very sensitive !
HAHA IM SO GLAD I'VE CONQUERED ONE OF THE HORRIBLE BANES OF MY EXISTENCE .
NAMELY , THIS LITTLE PIMPLE .
Although during lessons Matthio would always comment on my pimple , saying it was too cute for words , LOL !
He's so annoyingly cute sometimes .
Although most of the time he's always being an annoying prick , constantly getting on my nerves till the extent i'd take XiaoJun's water and bazooka him in the face .
He can get really irritating !
And he actually dares to say im the irritating one .
Okay anyway , where was i ?
Oh yes , pimple .
HAHA , THE EXHILARATION IM EXPERIENCING NOW IS TOO INDESCRIBABLE MAN .
I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO OVER THE MOON .
I've been plagued with quite a number of pimples since year 2006 , sigh , someone up there obviously hates me .
WELL !
This nose of mine should be glad im not tattooing my nose but popping a pimple or it'd hurt even more by thousands of times .
Okay wait , i should be the one counting my blessings because after all , im the one withstanding the pain at the end of that .
Okay i'll use a vacuum to suck the words back in .
TAKE IT I SAID NOTHING THE PREVIOUS LINE !
HAH !
Bastardy little pimple , I'VE FINALLY GOT THE BEST OF YOU .
Oh bytheway im pretty proud of myself for not misusing 'bastardy' , since being a bastard means being fatherless , and arent pimples orphans ?
HAHA , i should seriously stop saying "fuck you" to people , since im not fornicating and have intended to .
HEH-HEH-HEH , okay i sound like some lecher when i do that .
HEE-HEE-HEE , okay this is worse , so i'll just stick to 'HEH-HEH-HEH' .
HEH-HEH-HEH , IM FEELING GREAT TODAY !
Oh yes , i recently chanced upon someone organizing a Holga spree and i seriously want to purchase that oh-so-lovely- Pink Holga CGFN !
SHIT , IT'S FAR TOO LOVELY .
It's definitely lovelier than the four beauties (it's four right ?) of China .
HAHAHA , I WANT IT I WANT IT .
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH , i cant wait to pop more pimples .
Sounds abit gross , BUT WHAT THE HECK .
OKAY BYE PORKYPOKES .

It's a sad world .

2008-06-10T09:55:00.004+08:00

Hi cowpokes !
I just woke up so there's much to update you guys on .
Anyway im really into online shopping these days , and what's more is that i've purchased three items online !
The feeling's just great whenever i see my package arrive in the mailbox , JUST FOR ME !
It feels so exclusive .
You guys should really indulge in online shopping too , no kid .
Except the only disadvantage is that you cant try on the stuff so the chances of you getting the wrong sizes are pretty high .
Of course , thats not the only disadvantage .
There also cases of lost mails , frauds , you name them all !
But hey , life is full of risks right !
So it's either we take a risk at things , or never get to achieve anything at all !
Life's quite unfair , but life is never fair , as quoted by my dad , for billions of times .
I remember the time when my brother and i were arguing over the computer , and my dad intervened by asking us to toss coins , whoever won would get to use the computer , which i found really unfair because he was always hogging the computer and now we even have to toss coins just to determine the outcome ?!
And just as expected , he win the toss , and i didnt even get to use the computer at all !
So i was grumbling away , saying life was unfair , and daddy pissed me off real bad by lamenting , life is always unfair .
I tell you , you have no idea how pissed off i was .
It's okay if i didnt get to use the computer that time okay , but what broke the camel's back was that he kept rubbing it in .
I WAS PISSED , I TELL YOU .
PISSED .
So pissed i wanted to stab someone right away .
But of course i didnt , or i wouldnt be sitting here blogging away early in the morning 10am .
Oh bytheway it's currently 10.02am !
Okay anyway , i've been contemplating if i should get that 35-dollar Fair Isle hoodie .
IT LOOKS TOO GORGEOUS , AND YET IT'LL CAUSE A BLACKHOLE IN MY POCKET .
BUT IT'S TOO PRETTY .
It's such a nice shade of brown , PLUS it has such beautiful little hearts on it .
You tell me how to resist that .
And furthermore , i wouldnt want to regret missing out on this just like the other time when my BELOVED DELIAS REVERSIBLE GREY/RED HEARTS ALL OVER HOODIE GOT SOLD TO SOME OTHER PRICK , )= !
I was so sad back then and so desperate to get my hands on it .
AND IT WAS SOLD , SOLD I TELL YA , SOLD .
Could you imagine how wrenched my heart was .
How sad that was , :\ .
And it's still sad .
I COULDA COUGHED UP 45BUCKS FOR IT I TELL YA .
But i didnt because i chose to spend my moolah on other things , which i really regretted doing so !
SAD SAD SAD .
They should change the lyrics "it's a big big world" to "it's a sad sad world" , i tell you it'd be the hit of the century , the millennium , the eon !
Although it hasnt really been proven just how many years are an eon .
ARGH , SAD .
DOWNRIGHT UTTERLY OUTRAGEOUSLY SAD .
So depressing , having something so lovely taken away you right under your nose , and especially when you know you could have been the one .
SAD , SAD , SAD .
This world is despicable man .
Okay not really , but Jane's despicable !
Big bad sarcastic bully , Jane Lau Qian Ying .
And im bloody sure i gotcha name spelled right , HAHAHA .
Everyone , visit this meanie at FLOWNAWA-Y !
I even specially made it a link so you can just click on it .
HAHAHA .
Oh wait i shouldnt be doing this .
Cause i'll only be boosting the number of visitors to her site !
AHH , okay never i mind .
And yet another sad case in life , )= .
Okay i dont know how i did it , but my random rants have became a successfully long post , HAHAHA .
BYE POKES .
Cowpokes * .

Teenage Godzilla

2008-06-09T10:24:00.003+08:00

HI PORKYPINES !
I just came back from an intensive workout !
Here's the itinerary :
Jog , exercise , play , jog and exercise !
I had a 2km jog !
Weeeee , at least this way i'll know i did try to lose a little fats .
This way , i can sleep at ease !
What an easily-contented girl i am !
Okay kidding , LOL !
Well , at least im proud enough to say i did get my lazy ass off the chair just to exercise and burn some fats .
Oh by the way im really hating my thighs , )= !
I think i've got thunder-thighs okay , they're like , huge ?
I think im being a little too self-conscious here, BUT SERIOUSLY .
THEY'RE YET ANOTHER BANE OF MY EXISTENCE .
Sigh .
I think Channel 5 should just make do without Incredible Tales and make do with my story instead :
-Clears throat-
There was once a pig in a Zena costume who resided in Singapore .
Ironically , her name was Zena .
Everyone thought she was human , but little did they know , SHE WAS A PIG !
)=
She thought , okay she knew she had humongously fat thighs and knew she was fat , she was practically a living Godzilla !
So she decided to work out .
And she did , for weeks .
She finally slimmed down , and was proud of herself .
But soon came the school holidays , and she became lazy .
Her weekly routine of exercise thus stopped , and all she did was to jam the computer and pig out every single minute , no pun intended regarding the pigging out .
She soon regained all the fats she once lost AND ONCE AGAIN SHE WAS A PIG , okay i've forgotten , she is a pig .
I mean , was , i almost forgot i was telling a story and i was supposed to use past tense .
Okay to continue with , so she decided she should die , instead of living with fat thighs .
So she made her way to the slaughterhouse and , TADAH !
She reincarnated into a girl named Zena , who , obviously , is me .
And this is the story of my life !
Past , life .
Sigh , im pathetic )=
I feel fat fat fat fat fat , i probably weigh a mighty 92kg .
You tell me how fat is that .
Im practically a Godzilla in a Zena costume who acts like a teenager everyday !
SIGH , ABSURD ABSURD ABSURD .
Okay i dont know whats absurd , I JUST FEEL FAT )=
Shit , i feel like going to Tibet to be a hermit and live on nothing but veggies for 6 months , and then come back to Singapore after that period of time .
Im sure by then i'll be the next Audrey Hepburn , as in , weight .
HAHA HOW'S THAT .
YAY I'VE PLANNED MY LIFE .
To Tibet we go !
And i'll probably get to see the Dalai Llama .
Seriously , im just making a mockery outta my ownself .
Im pathetic , :| .
Kill me .

Robots on a pinwheel

2008-06-07T14:50:00.002+08:00

I think im feeling emo today .
-Punches out a sad face-
Okay far from being emo .
YAY IM FINE HAHAHA .
Or maybe not .
So many thoughts are racing through my little mind , pushing me towards the limit .
When will my mind ever cease to think .
My heart feels heavy .
It weighs a million elephants .
Although its weight , it's caused by just one alphabet .
And i find you eating my heart out , yet again .
I find practically eating me alive .
You're such torment .
Sigh , when will i ever stop ?

Aftereffects

2008-06-05T21:42:00.006+08:00

Tsk , i was posting all about the non-residential band camp's happenings last night , when suddenly my wireless internet connection disconnected .
So , too bad you guys dont get to know how it went !
Okay to be fair , here's a short summary :
I TOTALLY ENJOYED IT !
:D !
I loved , loved , loved and absolutely loved band camp !
I got quite sad when it all ended , cause i was just beginning to enjoy myself .
Initially i was quite unpleased cause we all had to stick with our appointed groups , but all of us slowly opened up to one another and eventually , we all had fun !
Especially when we kept calling Nash NUSH , LOL !!
I loved the dress-up game the most !
The underwear we made for JunYong was hilarious , LOL !
An unseemingly triangular underwear made to fit his crotch perfectly .
And Nush was like touching every part of JunYong's body , LOL !!
Oh yes , the video at the end of band camp was so totally unglam and hilarious , because all the pictures of us were when we were caught in action , especially the close-ups of WeiWen , LOL !!!!
Ohmygod , seriously , LOLOLOL !
Wee , i hope we'll get to stay overnight come December , im so totally anticipating it !
On a heavier note :
Why does it feel like i still do ?
HAHAHAHA , absurd .

Red alert

2008-06-03T13:44:00.002+08:00

HI COWS !
I dont think i'll be posting for either tomorrow or Thursday because i'll be having my non-residential band camp !
So miss me for 9 and a half hours x2 , which equates to 19 hours !
Tomorrow's Wednesday , which means Sacha sweetheart will be leaving for Baracay .
HI SWEEETIE , I'LL MISS YOU MUCH , HAVE FUN AT BARACAY !
(♥) !
Im missing 1E4 !
Wonder how's everyone doing !
I , for one , am drowning in a pool of boredom .
Im actually rotting hardcore to the effect i actually gained weight .
FISHFISCHEFISCHFEEEEESH .
And because i havent been jogging lately , i actually didnt have any stamina to jog much on Sunday .
What a let-down !
SHIT .
SO , COWS , IF YOU WANNA GO JOGGING ANY TIME ANY DAY , MAKE SURE YOU BLOODY HELL CONTACT ME , BE IT MIDNIGHT OR MID-DAY !
Take me seriously .
You'd better tell me if you're going jogging , BECAUSE I HAVE TO DO SOME HARDCORE FAT-SHED .
SO TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME .
Okay im going crazy BECAUSE I CANNOT STAND TO SEE MYSELF GROW FATTER DAY BY DAY AND NOT DO ANYTHING .
DO YOU KNOW HOW SHITTY IT GETS DOING SO .
ACK .
Okay so please , once again , ladies and gentlemen , contact me , if you're going jogging .
I would prefer parks or stadiums in Woodlands or somewhere near Woodlands because i do not want to travel to far places , and i've never liked doing so .
OKAY SO CONTACT ME .
TAG ME EMAIL ME RESORT TO ANYTHING , because im desperate .
OKAY BYE COWS !

ten feet under

2008-06-02T18:34:00.003+08:00

HELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOEEEEYYYYOOOOWOOOOOOOO .
My blog is officially dying due to my extreme laziness !
May i present to you a-chocolatebar's custom-made coffin in metallic gold !
*SHOVES INTO YOUR FACE* !
Okay !
Been having majorly intensive band practices these few days .
I've been blowing into the Euphonium over and over , MY MOUTH NOW ACHES LIKE SHIT .
Okay , er , shit dont ache , right ?
Okay , it's aching like a constipated asshole !
I TELL YOU , ITS SO DAMN TIRING .
Especially when i have keep blowing and blowing because i seem to be squeezing the air out , but im actually not !
Okay maybe sometimes i do .
But it gets quite irritating especially when i dont feel like im doing so and yet i still have to keep retrying .
You do know the feeling right ?
Wednesday and Thursday will be MEGA tiring because we'll be having non-residential camps , imagine how disappointed Rebecca and i were when we found out we werent having overnight camps .
Okay im really really pooped now so ive kinda forgotten all the english i've learnt for the past 12 1/2 years , HAHAHAHAHA .
Whatever , pardon my English , la , HAHAHAHA .
Okay i find it damn gross to use singlish sometimes , although im like using it 24/7 , LOL .
But i always make it a point never to use it online , especially in blogs , which im currently succeeding in doing so , except im always liable to use it whenever im chatting on msn or indulging in other online stuff .
I forgot the word to describe social sites like friendster , is it like , socially-active sites or what .
AHHH , i cant think , im too tired .
MY DAD IS SO EVIL , he's like forcing me to go take a shower .
I just HATE showering .
I think it's troublesome plus a waste of time .
IT'S JUST SCRUBBING HERE SCRUBBING THERE , WASHING HERE WASHING THERE AND THEN THERE'S THE PUTTING ON OF CLOTHES .
WHICH IS ALSO AN EXTREME WASTE OF TIME ESPECIALLY FOR GIRLS , BECAUSE WE HAVE TO PUT ON EXTRA UNDERGARMENTS .
Do guys wear bras ?
I doubt so .
SO YOU SEEEEEEEEE .
MY DAD THE TROUBLESOME !

A BOTTLE OF LOVE

2008-05-28T17:54:00.003+08:00

MIKKI IS COMING TO SINGAPORE .
MIKKI IS COMING TO SINGAPORE !
MIKKI IS COMING TO SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OHMYGOD MIKKI MIKKI MIKKI MIKKI .
MIKKI MIKKI MIKKI MIKKI I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU , OHMYGOD I HAVE TO START SLEEPING EARLY , BUY SOME FACIAL MASKS , I HAVE TO PREPARE MYSELF FOR HIS ARRIVAL !
MY FACE HAS TO BE IN TIP TOP SHAPE , MY DARK EYE CIRCLES HAVE TO BE GONE .
MIKKI MIKKI MIKKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !
(♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥) !!!!
MIKKI I ♥ YOU .

And yet another quiz

2008-05-28T11:17:00.002+08:00

The holidays are boring .
I dont really want to blog much , but i'll do it for the sake of Charmaine's quiz .

1) What do you think an ideal best friend should be like ?
I dont care much about other people's best friends , but i feel my best friend should be able to communicate with me , and should share the same interests with me , which will give us more reasons to communicate better !

2) If you were to have a dream come true , what would it be ?
There are so many things i want , but i guess if i were to have a dream come true , it would be for all my wishes to come true !

3) Whose butt would you like to kick most ?
Zourdan Cheong Ming Feng's .

4) What would you do with a billion dollars ?
You hadda ask . Give half of it to my daddy , and just like how my brother and i used to plan in the past , we would make sure each of us three siblings get at least a reasonable amount from the billion dollars , and then after that , i'll make sure i purchase every single thing i've yearned to have , and as for the rest of the money left unspent , i'll make sure my mom gets a sum too , and then i'll donate some of it to charity and keep the rest for myself in a bank account !

5) What's your ideal lover like ?
Havent i been asked this already ? Someone who'll love both my family(especially my dad) and i , and also someone who'd gladly piggyback me around the world and also sit down and enjoy Meiji yoghurt with me ! Only this way , will i really be happy when in a relationship . Of course , i'll also make sure he feels the same way , so both of us would be happy . That's the most important thing in a relationship , no ?

6) Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone ?
I'd say nothing's more blissful than having pizza with a loved one .

7) How long do you intend to wait for someone you love ?
I'll wait , only if im sure the person would reciprocate , or you could just ditch the idea .

8) Has there been anything that has made you extremely happy ?
Spending good times with my dad , especially when he's in a superb mood !

9) Define the term 'love' .
I think love's a mixture of happiness and sadness .

10) If the person you like is already attached , what would you do ?
I'd cry , and slowly give up on this person , by hook or by crook !

11) How would you see yourself in 10 years' time .
As brilliant as ever .

12) Currently who's / who're the important person(s) to you ?
My dad , my classmates , my friends .

13) What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
She's dumb , thats for sure , but she's nice and i loved her alot back in primary school !

14) Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor ?
I want to be married and rich .

15) What's the first thing you do when you wake up ?
Anything but exercise .

16) Would you give your all in a relationship ?
VIRGINITY ? NO .

17) How would you rate the perfection of your life right now ?
8/10 . Minus two for the lack of money plus things to do .

18) What kind of people do you hate ?
People with lousy english . KIDDING KIDDING KIDDING ! Im seriously fucking kidding . I think it'd be snobs , like some of the girls in my school -________- !

I'd like to tag people to do this quiz , but then again , im lazy and i wouldnt wanna trouble people .
So considerate of me , aint it ?
HAHAHA .
Okay whatever , do this if you want to , BYE !

Sweet like honey

2008-05-23T20:49:00.002+08:00

Okay im posting for the second time today , and this time , it's all about friends !
I was just reading all the previous tags on my tagboard , and suddenly i felt so wretched , just thinking of how i treat my friends sometimes .
I feel like such a bitch whenever i remember how i lost my friends when i stopped contacting them , and when i kept procrastinating on outings , and im especially sorry towards Hweeteng , Zixiang , Huiying , Wanyun and company .
Im always procrastinating so i know i have no one to blame except for myself , now that i know i've been kept out from all activities amongst you guys .
Anyway , sorry for being such a lousy person .
Next , there's the time when i used to like Leonard (im just going to type out his name cause im no longer a coward !) so much , and there was that one time i cried because i got so jealous .
Come to think of it , i must have looked and acted so dumb !
Okay , er , anyway , point is , even when i refused to make a sound , you guys (my dearest dearest most beloved classmates) just continued cheering me up , and eventually made me feel better .
Whereas all i could do was just sit there dumbly .
Thanks , classmates !
I really wouldnt know what to do had it not been for you guys !
(♥♥♥♥♥♥♥) !
And of course , not forgetting Weiny !
Weiny is very special and dear to me because she has always been like an online big sister to me .
She's always cracking me up like a peanut's shells , and most importantly , has always been there for me , hearing me rant about L , my life , and many blah's !
Sometimes i get so worried i'd lost her just like how i used to lose friends so easily , because i do not want that to happen .
Sigh .
I really regret having treated my friends the way i did previously .
A few of them are Tony and Deming .
We met in MapleStory a few years back , and i remember how close we were , just like bees and honey , okay cliched but still , you get the point .
We would always go hunt monsters together , and we took so many screenshots my brother just kept hitting the roof .
Tony was an elder brother to me , whereas i would call Deming "daddy" .
Things started to go very wrong when i quit maple , and started to get too lazy to even keep in touch with them , including the rest of the close friends i had in maple .
As a result , i gradually lost contact with them .
Not only did i lose contacts , i had lost very special and priceless friendships .
As years passed , i just kept changing friends like a change of clothes .
And just when i thought i had really settled down , PSLE came and went , and there came the secondary school which had me losing every single one of my friends .
Maybe it was just me , and nothing else .
I used to take my friends for granted , thinking they'd always stand by me and be there for me .
But i was wrong , and i had to learn the hard way , i had to cherish them first .
The outcomes were just too bitter .
Even though sometimes i'd appear so aloof about things , treating these things indifferently , but who am i kidding ?
I know deep down im feeling bitter , and that i would really wish to have them back .
How i wish i didnt have to wait till they were gone before i could cherish them .
If given a second chance , i would definitely want to treat them better , and cherish them greatly as if they were my second life .
Many many friends i've yet to mention here .
For instance , Pamela and Nini .
I had met these two special ladies in AuditionSEA , and i've never regretted doing so .
Although we always appeared to be fighting over one another , especially me , being a so-called "Romeo" , and always sweet-talked one another , we know deep down we were more than that , at least , to me that is .
I dont know , i just dont know why things went so awry all of a sudden .
I stopped playing this game , and all i found out was that i was losing everyone .
I had lost two very special friends .
Maybe it was just me , again .
Maybe i just neglected them , and went on with my own things .
Maybe i ignored Nini , gave her the impression i no longer needed her as a friend .
Maybe i showed Pamela my social circle was wide and that i had no such need for her .
Did i , do all that ?
Maybe it's always my carelessness .
And again , if given a second chance , i would like to tell you guys i love you , and these are no longer mere sweet-talk .
I miss Best .
Best was really a best friend to me .
And again , maybe it was just due to my negligence i just lost yet another special person in my life .
Sometimes i seriously hate myself for being so lousy .
I've been given a chance to know them , and yet all i do is lose them all the time .
Sigh .
I am such an asshole .
Rebecca .
I really wish you'd stop being so kind , always withstanding me , even when i throw tantrums .
Do you know how much i hate it when i throw tantrums and you still continue supporting me , being there for me ?
I feel so lousy because that's all i can do , sometimes .
Shit .
I really dont know what to say , because you just mean , a lot to me right now , and i hope it doesnt change because , i know i need your friendship , very much .
Sigh , i think , all i can say now , is . . .
Sorry , to everyone i've let down .

Questionnaire

2008-05-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

I had wanted to blog about what's been happening , but i think i'll just complete Ish (♥)'s quiz first !

1) Do you wish to do this test ?
Since Ishy has told me to , so i will , it's just that my sore thumb is making it difficult for me to type .

2) Who is more important to you , friend or boyfriend ?
Neither , my dad's the most important .

3) Who is the person i trust most ?
No one but myself , i guess .

4) Do you think you have enough confidence ?
No !

5) Do you prefer chocolates or chocolate sundaes ?
Both , and especially the chocolate sundae if it's from MacDonalds !

6) Do you believe in seeing rainbows after the rain ?
Most definitely .

7) What is your goal this year ?
I never really thought about it , but if you ask me , i think im aiming to be able to hit the high notes on my Euphonium easily !

8) Do you believe in eternity love ?
Do i look like i believe in that bullshit ?

9) Have you broken someone's heart that he/she wanted to commit suicide ?
No way !

10) What feeling do you love most ?
That important feeling i have on my dad !

11) What are the requirements from your other half ?
As long as he loves me and my dad and doesnt mind piggybacking me around the world , i'd say he's the one !

12) List out 5 best friends of yours .
Er , my dad , Rebecca , Weiny , Sandy and , i've got many so i seriously cant think of who to list out !

13) Are you lame ?
You can say so .

14) What do you think is the most important thing in life ?
I think what's most important in life is to do something you really really love and enjoy , that's about the whole meaning of life .

15) Do you love anime ?
YUCK NO , i cant stand those horribly gross voices of them female characters , EXTREME GROTESQUERIE !

16) Describe the person who tagged me to do this quiz .

Lovable , caring , a dumb-dumb (♥) .
17) What have you done to please yourself ?
Getting a near A2 grade for Math !

18) If time were to be turned back , where would you like to turn back to ?
My primary school years , so i could work harder and make my dad proud of me in every aspect .

19) Name one person you are madly in love with .
HAHAHAHA , SO FAR REBECCA KNOWS I'VE GOT IKUTA TOMA , HAMBURGER AND KOREAN , (♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥) ! I doubt you'll ever know who Hamburger and Korean are because those are nicknames which only Rebecca and i know !

20) What would you like for the world ?
That Armegeddon would come soon , so the wicked would all be wiped out .

Im not going to tag anyone to do this , just do this if you wish !
I'll love you twenty percent more if you do so , HAHA .
Bribery , LOL !
Okay bye !

Damsel in distress

2008-05-21T21:26:00.003+08:00

I got quite a big shock when my dad told me about the latest updates about Earthquake-stricken China .
He said a lady had been found underneath the rubble , but her legs were stuck , so in order to save herself , she had to saw off her own legs .
CAN YOU IMAGINE DOING THAT TO YOURSELF ?!?!
And what's worse is , there was no anaesthesia , and she must have been hurt badly due to the earthquake !
That's like making doubling her pain !
I was freaking out on my dad when he mentioned no aneasthesia was given .
And to think i whine like a baby whenever i happen to hit my leg against the sharp edges !
I must really learn to cherish my legs even more .
Come to think of it , the recent disasters such as the cyclone in Myanmar and the earthquake in China have really taught me to cherish what i have at hand even more .
For instance , my dad .
I feel fortunate because i can always expect to see my dad every morning , and also to have him always sharing the recent news with me .
I dont think most daddies do so , so i really consider myself as one of the fortunate people .
My dad is NUMBAH ONE !
To add on , my dad has always obliged to my every need , be it money , clothes , or even freedom , he is always able to understand and give in to me .
Even though he tends to nag abit when it comes to hanging out with friends , i know he has my welfare at heart because i know he's afraid i just might start loitering around and end up being an Ah-Lian who goes round hacking people with a Parang .
And yes , i can understand his fears .
Im sure most parents share the same fears as my dad , especially when it concerns their children .
And although im always too shy to say this , but i would like to apologise to my dad for always acting insolent whenever he starts to nag at me about going out .
Like the other time , when i had wanted to go PC Bunk , (okay i was seriously acting puerile the other time -___-) , and he didnt allow me to , and even wanted to tag along to make sure i was fine , not only did i not appreciate his concern for me , i actually threw tantrums and ignored him for about three hours , and i felt very bad deep down because i knew i must have hurt him by doing so .
My dad is always telling me not to cry should he die one day , and i'd ask why , and he tells me it's not necessary .
If that's what my dad really wants , i'd do so .
But there's only a four-percent chance of me not crying , because i know i will .
I hate growing up because i'd tend to get embarrassed and all and not say a phrase of "I Love You" to my dad anymore , like when i used to do so daily when i was much younger then .
Whenever disasters strike other parts of the world , i would imagine what would happen in my dad just so happened to be there , and i'd start crying because i couldnt imagine life without my dad .
And i would wish badly i was still young then , so i could hug my dad and tell him a simple phrase of "I Love You" .
I know the chances of him reading this are low , but i'd just like to say , I love you dad .

Pissed , pissed , pissed .

2008-05-20T20:11:00.003+08:00

Had band practice today .
I got fucking pissed off with myself for not being able to hit the high notes .
I know i shouldnt hold such high expectations for myself , but i know i had to and i felt so shitty because it was if no matter how many times my senior tried to coach me , i still failed to hit the fucking high B note .
-___- , i think im feeling extremely pissed off because so far i've spotted two F's , which isnt what i usually type these days .
I guess today's an exception .
Sigh , i got damn upset when i read through my previous essays and i actually thought , "Am i really the one who wrote this ?" .
And you can guess why i got upset because my english must have deteriorated beyond hope that i actually couldnt recognise my own essays ?
I cant even remember how to use the word "deteriorated" properly anymore .
I cant even stop making careless grammatical and spelling errors already .
Whatever happened to my English ?
If only Prez Nathan could ring me up tomorrow morning telling me i actually happened to be the nation's top-scorer for English .
That would certainly relieve some of the shitty-ness inside of me .
Even right now when im typing this dumb entry of mine , i've already had so many errors i feel like killing myself , -______________- .
F___ .
No matter how many times i try to make myself speak nothing but perfect english , i always end up uttering singlish , and im not saying its bad , and neither is it good for someone who wants to keep up her standard for English .
WHATEVER .
Im so freaking pissed off right now i feel like smashing the laptop against the walls .
MOTHERF___ER .

Mundane Mornings

2008-05-19T11:14:00.004+08:00

Life's been quite mundane these days .
Not to mention the sleepless nights i've been experiencing which arent of any help to my dark eye circles .
I dont really know what i've been up to .
All i do is go online and just randomly surf some sites .
Im bored .
Life's boring .
Everything seems to be boring .
Nothing interests me anymore .
I hope i'll be able to perk up soon .
Pfffft .
Life is especially meaningless whenever i see so many beautiful things and yet i cant have them .
Beautiful things such as the :
Pink Limited Edition Holga @ 120 SGD
One Step Land Camera Polaroid @ 70 SGD
Delias Red and Grey Hearts Reversible Hoodie @ 45 SGD
Fredflare Stormy Clouds Hoodie @ 55 SGD
>:|
I want them oh-so-badly !
Especially the pink Holga and the Delias hoodie .
Maybe daddy will agree to get me the Holga .
BUT I WANT THE DELIAS HOODIE .
Oh my shitty @#$!@$ !
LIFE'S TERRIBLE AT THIS JUNCTURE .
Sigh .
I've been starving myself these few days .
Living only on an irregular diet of junkfood .
I've not had a proper meal since Saturday's Chicken Chop for dinner at a coffee shop .
All i've had so far are potato chips , chocolates , yoghurt , canned soup , milk , everything but rice and proper meals .
And im glad to say so far i've been able to keep up with my daily routine of 100-150 sit-ups .
YAY !
We must win the battle against them horrible fats .
Im also feeling terrible because i feel my English has deproved by a thousand miles .
From my usual A grade to a lowly B grade .
What the shiz .
I feel like killing myself .
Fuck everything that's going wrong .

Beautiful Days

2008-05-18T15:33:00.002+08:00

Last night was just wonderful .
I dreamed of Ikuta Toma , and i was the female leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeead !
Ohmygod , how wonderful could a dream possibly get ?
I was watching a fan-made video of Ikuta and Maki , Nakatsu and Ashiya for the second time , and i still cried as much .
The music used was just too bloody sad and touching , and not to mention the scenes taken were the most saddening ones .
So you could just imagine how sad i was when i watched it .
My Ikuta should never cry .
Cause my heart will ache too much , (♥) .
Anyway , about the dream , HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .
It's too too toooooooooo wonderful .
Ikuta was actually my BOYFRIEND !
And , and , we actually were actually watching the rainbows together , doing all sorts of romantic things .
So you could just imagine that look on my face when i had to wake up .
Spoilsport , >:|
I MUST have another wonderful dream like this again .
MUST , MUST , MUST !
Dreaming of Ikuta Toma (♥♥♥♥) beats looking at L ANYTIME .
I cant believe my lousy judgement previously .
Anyway the very sad and touching song used for the video is Winter Sleep , by OLIVIA .
Thats the name stated there , so i have no idea what her surname is .
But it's a really beatiful song .
I had wanted to use it as my site's song , but i thought i should just stick to Ikenai Taiyou (♥♥♥♥) , since it suits the ambience of my site .
AND YOU GUYS SHOULD GO LISTEN TO WINTER SLEEP .
It's a really really nice song .
And also Ikemen Boogie Nights , one of the soundtracks for Hana Kimi , it's a very sad music , not song .
Basically cause there're no lyrics , just the music .
It's really nice too !
Go go go , get your eyes off the porn sites and go listen to these two songs .
So , went to NTUC earlier this morning with daddy , bought quite alot of goodies and as usual , finished them almost immediately after we reached home .
Now i know why my house tends to be so deprived of snacks .
Because of my family's gluttony !
And later i'll be trying out Campbell's Mushroom Seafood condensed soup !
I cant wait , ohmygod !
I just LOVE Campbell's mushroom soups .
It's so creamy and just tooooooooooooo delicious to resist !
But my Ikuta Toma (SQUEALS !) is waaaaaaaay more irresistible (♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥) , like , obviously .
I'd gladly give him an uber bearhug !
And not forgetting , mikki too !
Mikki is too cute for words , okay !
He's a shuffler from the Melbourne group .
Even though im so not in the least bit into shuffling or shufflers , but Mikki has really gotten to me .
HE'S TOOOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE !
Im so envious of the people who went to Rouge the other night , because Dan , who went , said Mikki was there and that his cheeks were so red they were akin to Pikachu's .
CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW JEALOUS I WAS WHEN I HEARD DAN SAY THAT .
AND HE DIDNT EVEN GET A PICTURE OF MIKKI FOR ME WHEN MIKKI WAS JUST RIGHT INFRONT OF HIM ?!
I was obviously born to get aggravated by him , dumb brother of mine .
Okay er , IM IN A GOOD MOOD NOW !
WONDERFUL , WONDERFUL SUNNY SINGAPORE !
And p.s. : The only times i feel so good towards Singapore is when im in a good mood , or i can just go hating on this country for its dumb sweltering heat .
ARGH .
Oh , oh , and , i seriously have no idea why Singaporean audiences are so conservative .
I watch those American shows such as American Idol and So You Think You Can Dance and many others , and i always see the audiences standing up , giving the performers a standing ovation , and yet all we Singaporeans do is just to sit down and clap , and sometimes we dont even get to cheer loudly .
?!?!
Talk about showing appreciation for the performers !
ABSURD okay !

Dedication ; Sheela

2008-05-17T11:21:00.002+08:00

Sheela :
Im sorry my emotions constantly get the better of me , which results in our friendship getting affected .
I seriously didnt mean to give you the cold shoulders .
Just that , i was afraid i'd flare up at anyone at just about anytime .
I read your messages yesterday , and i wanted to give you a reply .
But i guess i didnt .
So i'll just have to do it here .
Seriously , we have to ignore those brainless twits .
They're just being narrow-minded by saying society has no place for obese people .
If they think so , then they're seriously wrong .
Whatever happened to famous celebrities like Moses Lim and Lydia Sum ?
They're fat too , but they made it big .
They're now famous people in the media world .
So whoever said fat / obese people dont stand a chance ?
If they actually dared to say fat people didnt stand a chance in society , they seriously ought to come up with some proof and also ought to burn off .
Because they're just messing with you which in turn , are also messing with all of us .
I hope those twits see this because it might at least widen their narrow little brains by a milimetre .
And also , dont give a shit about what they say , because you know i'll still love you :)

Fluorescent Green

2008-05-17T10:40:00.003+08:00

I dont really know why am i posting .
Because i dont even know what to post about .
Er , okay , some highlights .
Rebecca came to my house yesterday , were working on the group flag for SEM .
Just though we would work on it , and then see if the group would like it .
Im having so many aftereffects .
It keeps lingering in my head .
Why do i still feel this way ?
Shit , i hope it goes away soon .
Okay i dont know what im posting about .
Im just too sick of blogging .
What am i saying !
I ♥ Mikki , :) !

Just one

2008-05-14T15:59:00.002+08:00

Received the rest of my results !
Im quite pleased with myself , i guess .
Also terribly disappointed with my english results .
Sigh .
I guess i'll just havet do better the next time round .
But i still am very disappointed , i didnt expect such horrible grades .
And this is an all-time low for my english results .
Disappointment and more disappointment .
Ah well !
I guess one cant quite cry over spilled milk !
Whats done is done !
Had a talk by Dr William Tan today , he was funny and yet serious at the same time .
For some reason i was quite afraid of him , and it's not because of his legs .
It's because there's this certain fierceness in him .
And i swear i seriously didnt stare at his legs because i was freaked out , i was only looking i thought it must have been terribly hard for him to overcome his handicap .
I hope he doesnt misunderstand me , because he did ask me why was i constantly looking at his legs .
He's a great man , and also very inspirational , like what Mr Siva has said .
Dont wanna elaborate much on the talk , but i enjoyed it .
Dillon was being scary today because i've never seen him so pissed off at Mr Fan before .
Calm down , Dillon !
Anyway , was quite pleased with my chinese results .
At least i got an A1 , after calculating the scores .
Im not quite sure if it'll turn out to be an A1 in the report card , but as long as it ranges from A2 till A1 , then im satisfied !
I find my results quite pathetic because this must be the only A i've got so far , excluding Home Econs or DnT .
But overall , i must say i've done quite okay , at least i achieved decent results .
I was also quite disappointed with my science results because i thought i could at least get a B3 , if not my usual A2 .
But i guess this time , fat hope .
Okay i should just stop brooding over my results .
And i realized my school can be quite a moocher , making us go round collecting funds and stuff .
MY GOD .

Sweats of anxiety

2008-05-12T15:51:00.002+08:00

Today was definitely a stressful day for me , im not so sure about my classmates , although i do think they were stressed out too .
We received our exam papers , except for our mother-tongue and science ones !
Im seriously nervous about my science results because i just know im going to not do so well , due to my lack of revision and also my careless mistake , and i found out i lost a mark due to a careless mistake .
And careless mistakes are really the banes of every student's examinations okay !
Okay , at least to me , they are .
Due to my darned careless mistakes i actually lost TWO marks for my Math paper , or i would have gotten an A2 , and i think daddy's right , whatever marks below 70 is still considered as an average mark .
And i wish teachers would stop giving students that "best class pressure" , it just gets so annoying .
Whoever said students in the best classes or so , have to do better than everyone else in the entire level .
That's so not true !
Furthermore , i do think it's unfair for secondary one students because all they've got are just their PSLE scores and furthermore , the syllabus in secondary school is a planet from that of their primary schools .
I dont think many of you would agree with me on this , but i just have to say what i think is right , in my point of view , that is .
As for English , im very disappointed with myself because . . .
I think i did terribly this time round .
I would have expected at least a sixty and above because a fifty is just far too apart from an eighty .
That's like a thirty-mark difference .
And if it wasnt for my careless mistakes , again , i would have gotten higher , at least enough to please myself , even if it's just one percent of pleasantry .
But the point is , i never thought i'd do so badly .
And as for my composition and letter-writing , i think im going to do very very badly .
Rebecca tried to assure me i'll do just fine , but i cant reassure myself that because i know what i've written for my composition was just pure shit and i stand of a seventy-six chance of probability that i've definitely written out of point .
Even Ms Low said most of the people who chose the same genres as me didnt stand much of a chance .
And i guess im one of them .
And with my current mark , i doubt i'll even make it to an A2 .
So i'd better buck up for my End-Of-Years .
Or i'd just kill myself if i scored less than 70 , because that's what i'll just do .
Just hope i make it above sixty this time .
Just about right now , Flo Rida's song "Low" is the perfect song for my score .
Im quite afraid i've disappointed daddy , regarding my math results , but , hey , you couldnt except me to just fly from a usual fifty to an eighty , right ?
That's so boffo .
Not saying it's impossible if i did study , but didnt he always say , "Practice makes perfect" and that the "Slow and steady wins the race" ?
Talk about parents practicing what they preach .
Sometimes i just feel they expect a little too much from their children .
Little wonder teenagers nowaday are so vulnerable .
Vulnerable to many things which leads them to being stereotyped as "The waywards" .
Okay wait , why am i sounding like an old lady nagging at children .
Okay , i dont care anymore .
I just hope i'll do well for science and mother-tongue , and probably keep up the A2 for science .
MR OH , PLEASE BE LENIENT !

Strands of white hair

2008-05-10T14:17:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Toa Payoh , had a haircut , like finally .
Had my hair trimmed and layered .
Although i do think i overdid it because now i think it's too short , and why do i say it's too short ?
Because my hair keeps falling out of place everytime i try to tie it up .
I hope Chuah doesnt bring out her bazooka on me when she catches my hair out of place .
But nevertheless , im still pleased with my current hairstyle .
I've not cut it in ages you'd think i lived in the barbarian era .
Speaking of hair , i think i did grow several strands of white hair after having travelled by car .
OhmyholyLord , travelling by car is far too nerve-wrecking .
I was so fidgety and the only thing in my mind was , "When is daddy going to finally get out of the car and slap some driver for cutting him ?" , and it's no surprise even if that happens , given my dad's temper .
I still remember the other time we went to pick my elder brother up from tuition at some place far , and during the journey home , my dad actually got out of the car and slapped another driver .
I cant remember why , but i just know my brother and i were so terrified back then we just kept quiet and kept close to each other .
And then there was the time when some driver cut my dad and my dad actually pulled out this car jack or something and actually pointed it to the guy , as if he was going to get it big time .
Ohmygod , now you see why it's so nerve-wrecking for me .
So i think i was better off travelling by train .
But then again , if given a choice , i would choose the car because i cant stand having people looking at me in the train and neither can i stand being in crowded places .
Okay , i'll probably be back later to update , or not .
Depends on how im feeling , okay bye buggers !

Glorious Sunrays

2008-05-09T09:50:00.004+08:00

Okay i just woke up , and i must say im feeling happy because :
1) IM FINALLY ABLE TO SLEEP SOUNDLY , BLAST INSOMNIA !
2) I cant wait to meet up with my former classmates , excited !!
3) Listening to Ikenai Taiyou at my own blog made me perk up , by a ton !
4) My dark eye circles died down , yay !
5) Weinerz and i are getting mushier each day , three cheers !
Okay er , the last one was pretty random , BUT I STILL LOVE YOU , WEINERZ PRECIOUSPUMPKIN !
Okay so , i'll be meeting Jeffrey , Jonathan and a few others later on !
I am so so excited because i've not seem them for like months , and im so excited and nervous i doubt i'll be able to say anything to them .
EXCITEMENT !
Okay , and , er , i sort of had a 'semi-nightmare' last night .
FAQ :
Q: Why "semi" ?
A: Because it wasnt totally a nightmare but it did have a tinge of horror in it .
A seriously weird dream .
Speaking of dreams , i've had many many weird dreams .
One was about a mad scientist who went round cutting off people's thumbs , and i swear it's true i dreamed of that .
And the other was about some weird looking Diablo monster chasing me around Causeway Point in the middle of the night .
And last night's was about some evil woman torturing me .
And so much more .
Have you guys had any weird dreams ?
If so , feel free to share !
And also , speaking of dreams , i wonder why do guys have wet dreams , while girls dont , okay maybe girls do , but it's just that i've never really seen that being reported , have you guys ?
It'd be pretty weird to wake up and find yourself masturbating over some slinky woman / man in your dreams .
And having touched on that , dont you think having pubic hair is such a hassle ?
And im not implicating that i actually do research on pubic hairs .
I mean , imagine if a lady with a bushy vagina were to have sex with a male with a similarly bushy penis , and before they are even able to get down to it , their bushes just keep getting in their way , you'd think they had to mow off the bushes to actually be able to get started !
And imagine what if they start to get kinky and would like to do all sorts of things , e.g. Licking , imagine how many furballs would form !
Okay some of you might have that "?!?!" reaction on your faces now , but , seriously ?!
It's no wonder why women these days actually indulge in Brazillian Wax .
It is so going to hurt like _ _ _ _ !
(Fill in the blanks yourself with whatever suitable words .)
Okay i'll be back later to blog , again !
Bye , temporarily !

Fruity Kisses

2008-05-08T20:25:00.002+08:00

Yes !
I've finally finished watching Hanazakarino Kimitachihe , the dramatized japanese manga !
But im unhappy because now i can watch Ikuta Toma no longer .
Hmm , my Ikuta )=
And Afiq is seriously acting puerile and annoying because he just suddenly strikes up a conversation with people on MSN and starts spamming them with all kinds of dumb and immatured messages .
Seriously , how dumb can one get ?
He's enough to make me hate his whole species , but of course , i wont !
And no offence to malays !
Because you know im ever so welcoming towards alllllllll races !
I am so glad i felt zilch towards him all the time while we were together .
Whatever made me agree to being with him ?
Sympathy towards him , perhaps .
Bolts of laughter at you , dope .
Anyway im really enjoying sitting in daddy's new car !
Weee , the feeling is just so great !
Although i do feel quite bad because he has to wake up earlier just so he can send me to school every morning , excluding Tuesdays i guess , can that's the day we get to go later and i can always travel by bus .
And also , i feel quite scared whenever i see daddy coughing badly , because , i think im just afraid to lose him .
Thanks , and i love you , dad !
You know i do !
American Idol is finally coming down to just two and i cant wait to see who will win !
It's such a pity Brooke got kicked off the week before because my dad and i really favoured her and thought she really had the potential to become a star .
Ah well , we wish her all the best and hope she'll do great in the many years to come !
Speaking of years , i realise time passes really really fast .
Because in just a blink of an eye it's already May , which means there are just about a few more months before year 2008 comes to an end and there goes a year with my dearest classmates .
And when year 2009 ends , there comes the dreaded separation .
I hope a miracle allows the whole of 1E4 Perseverance (♥) to score exactly the same results and end up in the same class in the year 2010 !
Okay fat hope , but , i really wish it'll happen !
Im not ready to just part with my classmates , because they are so dear to me , and they are what makes my secondary school life enjoyable .
I ♥ YOU , CLASSMATES !
I hope you guys get to see this !
Okay even if you dont , i know you know i love all of you , and set aside the boy-girl factors .
Whew .
I feel like i've got alot to blog about today .
Hmm , just blogging about my classmates made me forget what was the other issue i wanted to rant on .
Oh , yes !
Im changing my blog song to Ikenai Taiyou by Orange Range , which i love very and much and is also the OST of Hana Kimi !
Yay and three cheers for Orange Range !
Im getting to be so obsessed with Ikuta Toma and im always thinking of that lovely face of his , HEEEEEE !
I hope there'll be a sequel !
I cant wait ! !
I really really love that show , although it made me cry several Indian and Arctic Oceans because :
1) It made me really really upset when i saw my dearest Ikuta cry .
2) Mizuki makes me cry .
3) Ikuta is just too lovely when he acts out the sad scenes .
4) IKUTA ACTUALLY GOT HEARTBROKEN BECAUSE OF MIZUKI AND IZUMI .
5) The way Ikuta and the other schoolmates bade farewell to Mizuki was just too heartbreaking , i had to cry !
But even if so , i still do love this drama !
Yay and nine cheers for Hana Kimi and the lovely producer , for wanting to dramatize the anime and also allowing me to have a chance to know of IKUTA TOMA , (♥hearts;hearts;hearts;) !
Life is just too wonderful at this point of time .
HAHAHAHA !
Okay so , yay for the long weekends .
Even though i can heave a sigh of relief because the mid-years are over , but i know i cant fully relax BECAUSE , there's still the results .
OhmybeautifulLord , please please please let me do well for Math , i dont care if i for once fail English i just WANT TO DO WELL FOR MATH .
Okay even if i dont , please at least let me get a 60 and i promise and swear and vow and do all sorts of things to show my seriousness that i , will definitely study very hard for my end of years and show you i'll be able to get at least an A2 , okay ?
So , please ?
*Smiles earnestly* .
And , oh , oh !
Rasyidah my dearest monkey , i hope you will be able to retrieve your handphone ! !
Blast that petty thief who stole your handphone .
MAY HE BURN .
Okay bye !
And i love everyone , especially classmates , Rebecca , Weiny , Sheela , Sacha , Rasyidah and many many many others who bring joy to my life !
Ninety-nine cheers for us all !

Boogie Woogie Baby

2008-05-07T15:44:00.003+08:00

MUAHAHAHA .
My , or our , or whatever , DAYS OF MISERY ARE OVER !
No more mid-years , no more stress and just fun !
Yay , oh how wonderful life is , just about now .
I went over to Rebecca's house earlier on , and had mash potatoes , ice cream , and popiah from the coffee shop with her !
Oh and not to mention , my darling Frutips !
Wonderful sugar-coated blackcurrant chews !
Oh , and , im actually able to get away from my lazy mode and start posting , only because of SHEELA !
Sheela's my baby , (♥) .
Since baby has asked me to post , then i shall !
Yay , im getting more and more obsessed with Ikuta Toma !
I've just gotten hold of more pictures of Ikuta !
MUAHAHAHA , my wonderful Ikuta and Sheela .
Life's wonderful ~
Raindrops keep fallin' on my head , they keep fallin' !
Okay it just so happens that it's about to rain now .
HAHAHA suddenly i feel like im a rookie at English because :
1) I feel i have lost my range of vocabulary , like , even now , cause i cant seem to remember the word to express one's good grasp on vocabulary .
2) I seem to suck at writing compositions now .
3) I SEEM TO BE MESSING UP ON MY ENGLISH LANGUAGE .
Okay emergency resolution :
Speak good english , starting from now .
Okay , im now an ambassador of English !
I aim to represent Singapore in an English competition one day HAHAHA .
Okay im just kidding , i've never even dreamed of doing that .
Okay bye !

Lost my breath

2008-05-05T13:36:00.003+08:00

MEET MY LATEST OBSESSION , IKUTA TOMA !
He took my breath away , at first sight .
Thank heavens for Japan , only for this once , not forgetting how they treated Singaporeans in the past , BITCHES !
AHAHAHAHA , oh my God , thank God for the wonderful yet saddening anime Hana Kimi !
I cried myself another Indian Ocean infront of my computer when i was watching the scenes at YouTube .
)= , and i certainly lived up to Justin Timberlake's Cry Me A River's expectations .
Oh my god , whenever i see Ikuta acting sad scenes , i'll always get so upset i cry .
Such an emotional sissy !
But , HAHAHA OKAY I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT .
I LOVE YOU IKUTA TOMA , though i do know this is just mere infatuation , but , I STILL LOVE YOU , IKUTA TOMA !
WEEEE .

One sparkle , two sparkles

2008-05-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

Life's great at the moment .
Okay maybe not , considering im starving due to my maid's lousy housekeeping skills .
Hmm , to think i can still lay back and enjoy life when i clearly know doomsday is arriving .
My Math and Science Mid-years .
Surprisingly this time im more freaked out for Science than i am for Math because :
1) I seriously know shit about acids and alkalis .
2) I cant remember anything from the previous chapters .
3) I cant remember anything from the classification chapter .
4) This time is gonna be harder than ever to improve from my A2 to an A1 .
Four major reasons and also the banes of my school life .
Oh as for Math , im quite over the edge too , because :
1) Im afraid i still dont quite know how to differentiate between HCF and LCM questions .
2) I still suck at solving problem sums even though Ms Joyce has given us the Chapters 1-4 Revision worksheet .
3) I SUCK AT MATH !
4) Im so really fucking worried i will fail my math or i'll still maintain that borderline grade when everyone else is slowly improving and that gets me really nervous because i feel like a failure when i see those happy looks on other people's faces and i clearly know i sucked , for that moment , and i lose my fucking nerves i will feel like jumping off the nearest railing from my classroom .
5) Daddy is going to annihilate me , you'd think he's the next Terminator taking over Arnold Schwarzenegger .
6) Stress , stress and more stress and i could almost swear im starting to have wrinkles of an old lady's and also some white hairs , except i dont seem to be able to find any .
7) I dont want to face the harsh reality of dropping to the Normal Academic stream when i reach secondary three because of my lousy foundation of Math since secondary 1BECAUSE , my relatives are going to pile it up on me with , "Oh i thought you were from the express stream ?" , and i'd like to make it clear it's not because i look down on the Normal Academic students , it's just that , oh you will never understand .
8) I WANT TO MAKE IT BIG .
9) Okay how did that had anything to do with me losing my nerves over Math .
OKAY IM DOOMED , because i dont have any time left for studying Science and Math , even though i've always been a last minute person .
Okay forget it , no use stressing myself out right now with so many factors because i will have to mug hard tomorrow .
And this is quite a long post regarding my academic life for you readers .
And also , i'd like to show my appreciation for your deep appreciation of my life's daily happenings because :
1) I seriously dont know what's so interesting about my life !
2) It feels very good to know someone's actually reading my blog because he/she's interested in what im going through (THANK YOU) .
3) I love you readers ! Except for a certain unauthorized personnel and i know you fucking know who you are so stop spying on me like you're Sam from Totally Spies .
Okay !
I shall get on with my sgflea-ing at livejournal .
And those image-heavy entries are seriously annoying because it causes SLOW STREAMING .
Okay bye , baby(s) .
Okay oops sorry , Sheela , YOU KNOW YOU'RE MY ONLY BABY AND THE ONE FOR ME , (♥) !

Boom Boom Bam

2008-05-01T18:17:00.002+08:00

Im feeling lethargic .
Cant seem to build up any mood for anything .
And my cramps dont seem to be helping out much either .
I wonder when can i finally kick this procrastination habit of mine .
I clearly know im supposed to be studying for tomorrow's history test , but i just keep delaying things .
I'll never be able it big in life .
The weather's so terrible nowadays .
Even air-conditioners cant seem to help much , let alone fans .
I want winter !
Okay im feeling random now , and i dont know what f**** to blog about .
NOT IN A GOOD MOOD , HAHAHA .

Walking on sunshine

2008-04-30T19:41:00.003+08:00

Yay !
Im officially over everything now !
Not even a teeny weeny bit am i still dwelling upon the issue .
Whatever you say , boybitch .
I never do usually pay any attention to the words of bitches .
It's a whole new start for me !
Im just going to get on with life and not let anything to do with you bother me , at all .
And imma make my words come true .
:)
Imma add in my linking and tagboard sections soon , the latest by Friday , i guess .
Or i could just get on with it later on .
Anyway i've added a song to this site of mine !
It's entitled Everything We Had by The Academy Is... !
Ohmygod i so totally dig this song .
Sorry i kinda made it invisible so you wont have any means to pause it even if it's not to your liking .
Sorry !
Ohmygod i want a Fredflare / Wetseal / Delias hoodie , )=
And not to mention , my houndstooth / checkered shorts and my Sun 660 Autofocus Polaroid (which i've been putting off for months) !
Anyway , i hope i won't be given 0 for my chinese composition because i kinda thought i digressed !
Zeros are cool , but certainly not in this context .
Yay !
Im out of ideas as to what to post .
Time for dinner .
Bye , buggers !

Whores in the sea

2008-04-30T13:32:00.003+08:00

Shut up already , boybitch .
Im cool , im wonderful , im amazing , and i dont need any put-downs , especially from you .
I've already stopped harping on the whole thing okay , and there you are spreading it like butter on bread .
Seriously stop thinking you're so damn irresistible , cause you're not .
Boybitch .

5 days a week

2008-04-29T15:25:00.002+08:00

Nothing much happened today .
Everyday's the same , considering i attend school five days a week .
There wasn't PE today due to possible lightning rays , so Mr Ben came to our class to talk about fitness and stuff .
Mr Ben was like talking about the importance of proper attire , and some guys ending up having sore nipples due to improper attire , LOL !
Am quite worried about our science paper , because i totally know nuts about acids and alkalis !
I hope i'll be able to score an A1 because im always getting A2's .
It's time for some change , baby .
Went to the coffee shop and Mac's with Dillon , Rebecca and YuXuan .
Was so totally starving during class , so i couldn't wait to get my hands on my Popiah .
And we wanted to like order takeaways because we saw Mr Siva .
Why was Mr Siva even at the coffee shop in the first place ?
Popiah was nice , except the crabsticks spoilt the taste a little .
Hmm , i think i'd better stop here , cause i dont want to bore you readers with my mundane lifestyle .

Quit bombarding me

2008-04-28T21:28:00.003+08:00

Enough of the sad posts !
Why should i keep letting you take over my life .
Burn off , prick .
Anyway !
Daddy left for Thailand this morning !
He's going back to see Ye Ye , and probably do some shopping or even clubbing .
Let's hope he has fun and doesnt get hit on by some gay , not like i wanna stereotype , but having been there , i can almost swear Thailand is the transvestite kingdom .
And thanks for the scientific calculator , daddy !
My calculator died on me so i badly needed one .
Thank heavens for superdad !
I realize as i grow older and older , i find it hard to go up to my dad and hug , and tell him i love him .
And to think i used to love to do that all the time .
I guess this happens to all of us .
But nevertheless , the fact that i love my dad as much as ever stays the same !
Im made to be happy so that's what im going to be !
Imma kick you outta my head , prick .
Burn in hell !

The waves are crashing

2008-04-28T15:59:00.002+08:00

Where should i begin ?
Hmm , well , let's just say i've finally seen through you .
I now know how horrid your true self is .
Whatever in the world possessed me to like you ?
Im marvelled at my own lousy judgement , for once .
After what i heard from Regina , i couldnt help but think what a total meanie you are , and im using meanie , to be nice .
So what if i may not be the prettiest person to like ?
It doesnt give you the permission to say what , like , you'd rather be gay than fall for me ?
Like you're not Mr Universe yourself either , :)
I feel childish cause i clearly know im saying such mean things just to get back at you , but i think i really ought to , cause it's only right you get what you really deserve .
So you guys might think im doing this only to spite him , and that im probably doing this because i know i can never have him .
Think what you may , i couldnt possibly be bothered .
Am i glad im finally able to see the real you !
If you happen to be reading my blog , then this is to you :
Why are you even reading my blog ?
Just so you can like , what , make a mockery out of my feelings and emotions ?
Then lemme tell you this , loghead , i am so not going to let you get to me , so at least i was brave enough to tell everyone i like you , and i admit , i was quite obsessed over you , but at least now i know , HAHAHAHAHAHAHA .

Waiting in the corridoors

2008-04-27T18:32:00.003+08:00

My anxieties have finally died down a little .
At least i can now say i've straightened my thinking a little , and not worry unduly all the time .
I've been telling myself , it's not the end of the world .
It'll only be the end of the world , come Armageddon .
So what if he knows !
At least im brave to show the world who i really like !
My MSN has finally been "fixed" , it couldnt function because of the messed up date .
It has been days since i last talked to Weiny .
I wonder how she is )=
I miss Weinerz !
Weiny never be upset anymore !
I dont like to see Weinerz upset .
Weinerz is meant to be over-hyper , and not down in the dumps .
SO LIVE UP TO YOUR NAME , WEINERZ CHEEZYCAKEZ !
I love Weinerz , Weinerz love Zenierz !
Okay so , let's digress a little .
I wore my new shoe today , and , of course , since it's a new shoe , im bound to get some skin tears and blisters on my feet , and the skin of the back of my foot tore so badly i now have two mini plasters (with butterfly prints) on my feet .
Ahh , i dont know why im typing such random stuff .
Im just too shook up i guess .
Let the worse and not the worst happen , please .

Run me over .

2008-04-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

Wenjie was right , all along .
I should have known better .
I should have listened to Wenjie from the start .
Im feeling so vexed right now , i dont know what to do , how to live through this .
Just what am i feeling ?
Havent i always wanted him to notice me ?
Now that he has , why am i feeling this way ?
This was never what i had in mind , when i said i wanted you to notice me .
Now im such a mockery .
Yessiree , that i am .
Am i just too embarrassed or what .
I havent got it all right , but why do i feel so humiliated .
How did this even happen , when it wasnt supposed to .
You weren't supposed to be be in the know of my feelings .
How the hell did you even find your way here .
I feel betrayed , by what , i do not know .
I just feel so .
I feel i've been snitched upon , i feel so dumb .
Why did i even care to let my emotions and feelings show ?
I dont even know why am i feeling this way .
You weren't , and were never supposed to know .
And now they come telling me you know everything .
I don't know what i am feeling .
All i know is , i just want to escape this torment right now .
Perhaps i should appeal for a transfer of school .
Because if you really do know how i feel towards you , how in the world am i supposed to face you anymore .
Im always telling Zee never to let love get her down .
And just right now im already letting the little things take over me .
. . .
Talk about praticing what i preach .
She's right .
Nothing bad has happened .
So he knows .
So ?
What's going to happen .
That's what i want to know , that's what i dread to know .
Rebecca says im brave , to be able to let everyone know it's L i like .
But no matter what , i just can't bring out that self-esteem i know i have deep inside of me .
Im getting to be such a coward .
Ohmygod , why .
This shouldn't be getting to me at all .
So he knows !
What could possibly happen !
Haven't Rebecca already assured you everything's going to be just fine , and that she'd go make it clear to L , or , to be exact , fib , that the L you're referring to is not him ?
Sigh .
Come on girl , get your chin up .
You're Zena the Great , and nothing's gonna get you down .
But why is L getting me down . . .

2008-04-23T16:33:00.001+08:00

I cant seem to focus on my studies .
Exams are like , 44 hours away and im not even studying .
I seriously cant afford to flunk Math again , or i'll surely get into deep shit with daddy .
It's not just about getting into deep shit with daddy , it's about the disappointment i'll bring to them and such , ah , whatever .
Okay , how i wish i can just look upon it as "whatever" , but it's just too important for me to pass .
Rebecca and i have been talking about how some people have changed so drastically , and somehow i feel i've got a part to play in it , because i feel i've been neglecting them so .
Sorry , >:|
I really didnt mean to do so , if i did .
Okay im pretty sure i did .
Even Dillon noticed it too .
So i was like telling him , i hope none of us do change , but of course , like i said earlier on today during recess , the only constant is change (quote from sis' friend Julian) , and that as long as the world's still revolving , everything will still be changing (quote from Cheryl baby) .
I just hope i dont happen to be one of them victims , and i never want to desert Rebecca just for my other friends , because she's a terribly great friend , and she's also the first new friend i made on the first day of school .
And if i find that i do , im never going to forgive myself , and never will i face myself in the mirror again .
White bitch i'll be , if i ever do that .
Ohmygod please let me not change , though i do know i have a part to play , but please let me fucking not change .
Ohmygod im getting so worried .
I never want to lose Rebecca as a great friend .
She's always been the one there for me in school .
And also always the one who would be there to share my madness about L .
And we're always kidding about what if L mistakes her for me and thinks she's the one who likes him , LOL !!
Because im always dragging her along with me whenever imma ogle at L , and she always walks past L who is doing gate duty every morning .
The misunderstanding could be quite understand , should he ever find out my feelings for him .
XiaoJun , baby , and many others are always encouraging me to talk to L , but i just cant seem to do so .
Im such a coward .
Im so afraid , im so afraid , im so afraid .
Afraid of what , dont ask me , cause i just know im afraid .
I really like you , L , )=
And even if it's infatuation , and infatuation's considered to be a bad thing , i dont care .
All i know is i like you , ohmygod .
Im so happy for best , because things seem to be getting on fine between DS and him !
Yay best !
DS will definitely be able to see the good in you , in time to come !
To be exact , it's approximately two more years as stated in your blog .
But nevertheless , you'll be able to achieve what you want okay , best !
And Weinerz , )=
How i hope everything will be fine for you , because i wont be able to come online too often during the weekdays .
Please please tell me you'll be fine , and that you'll share with me whatever that's wrong , okay !
(♥) !

Random rants .

2008-04-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

1) Im getting so extremely irritated with people coming up to me , asking : "Are you a malay or chinese ?"
Kiss my ass , pricks .
Of course , with the exception of my classmates and people whom i know because they've got reason to want to know .
And i dont give no shit as to whether those people are asking because they wanna know me BECAUSE IT IS SO DAMN IRRITATING , TO THE MAX .
First of all , are you minds just so narrow that all you can think of are the four major races in Singapore ?
Whatever happened to International Friendship Day where people would want to study more about the people of all races from ALL OVER THE WORLD .
So , my mom is thai , and my dad is singaporean .
Sum it all up , im a mix of chinese and thai .
SO DOESNT IT EVER OCCUR TO YOU PRICKS THAT THAILAND IS JUST A THREE HOUR PLANE RIDE FROM SINGAPORE ?!
And just because my skin is alot darker than the average singaporean's , must you always go pin-pointing at me and go like , "Oh you're a chinese ? I thought you were a malay ."
Just to make things clear , it's not that i look down on the malays or whatever , but it just gets so damn irritating .
Please go study the countries all over the world , before you come up to me and ask me whether im a chinese or whatever shit , because imma sock you in the face , dumb fish .

2) After posing for a few shots for daddy to bring back to Thailand to show to grandpa , daddy actually had the nerve to say my smiles were stiff .
Imma sock you in the face one day , old man .

3) I've been getting some negative feedbacks about L , )=
I hope he wouldnt be too annoyed by me or something , come the day i tryta say "Hello" to him .

4) It's great having an elder sister , especially so when you're able to consult her regarding issues of the female body .

5) I realize after my heart shattered into smithereens , im feeling so hurt i actually cant seem to bother about L anymore .
And yet , i know i like L alot .

6) Mom owes me $20 (due to the 50% interest , HYUK HYUK) .

7) My exams are coming , may God bless me .

8) I've got this big pimple-like thing on my nose which i hope will quickly get lost because it's getting to become the bane of my existence .
Terrible .

9) NippleCrusher's a great seller , i recently bought a pair of uber lovely skimmer from her , and not only is she nice , she's efficient and also very fun to chat with !
Buy from her .
That's an order coming from zena the Great .

10) I enjoy punking people man .

11) Those taiwan idols cant act for nuts sometimes , i realized .
Their acting gets so over sometimes , and sometimes their expressions just suck bad .

12) My cheeks are flexible !!

2008-04-15T19:46:00.000+08:00

Hi buggers !
Wont really be posting much nowadays because school's gonna be hectic .
Exams are around the corner , there's our NAPFA tomorrow , oral's the day after , and not to mention the constant mugging for Math .
So , i'll probably stay inactive these few days !
If you've got something important you wanna contact me about , you can just ask me for my email or whatever , through my tagboard .
Okay bye buggers .

2008-04-13T10:07:00.000+08:00

I met WenJie yesterday !
And he was like so shy , so i ended up doing most of the talking .
And , and , i cant believe he actually did went to buy chocolates for me !
I swear i was only kidding when i asked him to bring sweets or chocolates .
Silly WenJie !
But thanks for the chocolates , anyway !
And you're not as short you described yourself to be okay , WenJie !
At least you're still taller than me !
YOU WILL GROW TALLER , MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .
Okay , yeah , so , those were yesterday's highlights .
I dont even know why i chose this song for my weblog .
Feels like there's a tonne of salt rubbing against my wound .
He should have been back yesterday .
Wonder if he has enough rest .
Life feels tough at the moment , sigh .

2008-04-12T09:37:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking about you again , last night .
Im filled with fear .
Im filled with excitement .
Im filled with heartache .
What could possibly cause these three emotions ?
You .
You're a plague of locusts .
You're heaven on earth .
You're a tragic story .
You're all these , and yet im all up for you .
If speak to you of all that's inside of me , what would you do ?
Will you reject me ?
Will you flash me a smile ?
Will you tell me something i've longed to hear from you ?
Im so afraid of rejection .
Im a broken heart when i see you with another girl .
And yet im such a lark , when i get a mere glimpse of you .
You're something so wrong and yet beautiful , do you know that ?

2008-04-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

Okay , i will be missing in action soon , but not just yet .
So , here i am to blog !
We had our NAPFA run today , and , yay !
I think i did quite well !
And the best thing was that i didnt even stop to walk !
Im so proud of myself !
And also of the whole class !
1E4 ( ♥ ) !
Hello , i feel as if my mind's going crazy .
I keep thinking about you , you , and you .
I dont know if i'll ever be able to think about anything else but you .
I AM GOING CRAZY , DUDE .
Hello , do you know ever since you've been away i cant get my mind off you .
Do you know ever since you've been away i've not been able to stop thinking how are you , and what you've been up to ?
Do you know ever since you've been away i kept wondering if you're able to get enough sleep ?
HELLO , DO YOU KNOW MY MIND IS BOMBARDED WITH QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU ?!
DO YOU ?
DO YOU ?
Okay , no , you dont , im pretty sure about that .
Even my entries are all about you , you , and more you .
It's you , everywhere i go .
Am i supposed to thank you for driving me nuts , because it's currently kindness week ?
Are you doing this to me out of kindness ?
Hello , if yes , then , thanks .
You have absolutely no idea how horrible it is for me .
ALL YOU DO IS APPEAR INFRONT OF ME FOR THE FIRST TIME IN SCHOOL , AND FOR COUNTLESS OF TIMES , AND YOU TURN MY LIFE UPSIDE DOWN .
WHATSAMATTER WITH YOU , BUGGER .
YOU MUST THINK IT'S FUN SEEING ME GETTING TORMENTED ALL DAY LONG .
IS THAT IT , HUH ?!
Okay , im just hyper-ventilating , i guess .
Because i doubt you even know i exist .
To you , my existence is like a speck of dust everywhere , HAHAHA , SPECK OF DUST AYE , ZENA .
HOW HONOURED YOU MUST FEEL , OH MY LORD !
And the worst thing is that i refuse to give up on waiting it out for you , silly old me .

2008-04-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

HI LOZRS !
Sorry i havent been updating for quite awhile , in fact , im here to tell you i'll probably not be updating for quite awhile , because im faaaaaaaaaaar too busy with school .
MISS ME !

2008-04-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

Im feeling ever so good today !
After yesterday , im more determined than ever to like L !
I must make it a point to talk to L soon !
This is what i drew in the computer lab during digital art lessons :

2008-04-04T17:02:00.001+08:00

I'd just like to say sorry to my classmates .
I know you guys were really trying to have me cheer up , but all i could do was to just keep everything to myself .
I know i made some of you worry alot over me , but it's just that , i didnt really want to trouble you guys by making all of you listen to my problems .
Im so sorry i couldnt stop crying away .
I guess it was pretty useless of me , to only cry , cry , and cry more .
But i really really appreciate all that you guys did , to try to cheer me up .
I must have been very irritating and annoying today .
For not talking and just stare into blank space , crying my eyes out .
I felt that was all i could do .
I kept asking myself , "Why am i even crying ? Didnt i say i wouldnt let anything get me down ?" .
But i could tell myself was , "I dont know either" .
Sigh , im sorry , guys .
I wasnt myself at all today .
Once again , im really sorry .
I just feel so stupid all of a sudden .
For having done nothing but cry , cry , and cry .
Im a mess .
Im hooked .
And a brokenheart .

2008-04-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

Things are beginning to look up , i think !
I kinda thought L noticed me , for once !
And i also kinda thought it was more than once , oh my gosh !
Now i really cant wait for band practice !
And also band camp , which is two months way , oh my god !!!
I am so anticipating to see L in anything else but his school uniform and phys. ed attire .
Speaking of which , i've only seen him in his phys. ed attire once .
But you know what , I LOVE THE WAY HE LOOKED !
Okay , what am i saying .
I practically love everything he's in .
Even though people might think his hairstyle is that of an uber-geek's , i find it so so cute and attracting !
I was telling baby today , during CIT , not to give up on S.J.I !
I , for one , can totally comprehend with her feelings .
But i told her , i will never let any other girl get me down , because i know i really like L !
I know it's hard for you , baby , when you do kinda know he treats you merely as his younger sister's friend .
But at least , you do get to talk to him sometimes , right ?
Isn't that good ?!
Furthermore , i can see you're really head over heels S.J.I , so , just go all out !
Even though sometimes i'm very tempted to give up on liking L , but when i think about how happy i will be even when he says a mere word of "Hello" , i feel everything is worth it !
So we must be optimistic , baby !
If we're actually pessimistic , then there'll be absolutely no hope !
But as long as we're optimistic , even if it's just a teeny weeny tad , then there'll surely be at least a glimmer of hope !
That's the difference , baby !
And as for that curly-willy , don't always think you'll never stand a chance !
I'm always behind you all the way okay ?!
Even if that curly-willy doesnt see the good in you , you'll still have me , honeybunny , sweetheart , and many many others !
Do remember that always !
And im telling you , i am so so proud of you , because you managed to pull through the three rounds of jogging .
LOVE YOU SHEELA BABY !

2008-03-31T19:43:00.000+08:00

Im getting to like footdrills more and more !
Especially the marching and shouting of "YES MA'AM" and "YES SIR" !
For the very first time , all the juniors had an ensemble !
Because the Tromboners were like , behind me , i kept having breakdowns because there was this tromboner who was like , blowing totally off-key , and the sound was terrible , LOL !!!
So , we practised Mary Had A Little Lamb , the F note and the E note .
Was a little bit shaky at the start for me , but once we reached the middle i was steadier already .
And because i kept looking at L , L actually caught me looking at him a few times .
OHMYGOD , EMBARRASSMENT !!
He probably thinks im one of those stalkers !
But , you see , no matter where im focussing on , i keep ending up averting my attention towards L .
So it's like , i cant help but look at L .
And , okay , i guess , to be honest , i wouldnt really wanna look at anything else .
But then again , i think it's better if i look at some other thing / person .
BECAUSE .
L is so so chummy with his junior it makes me so jealous .
AND !
He keeps on laughing and smiling when talking to her .
Okay , i know , it doesnt really mean anything even if he does so .
But , i cant help getting jealous , can i ?
I mean , all i can really do is to just try to look at him from afar , secretly .
But even when i do so , I KEEP ON seeing him with different females day by day .
What the heck is this !
Im seriously jealous , >:|
And i so regret not getting tickets for the 10th year anniversary concert .
My L , i mean , L , must have looked so suave in the costume and while performing !
AND MARIA HONEYBUNNY SAID HE WAS WEARING A BLACK SINGLET BENEATH .
OHMYGOD !!!!!!!
HOT SHIZZLE .
AND SOMEONE PLEASE BRING THAT ANNIVERSARY CONCERT BROCHURE TO SCHOOL , cause baby and sweetheart told me that L's picture was included in it .
I've been thinking of getting L a present on his birthday !
And then i'll ask Aliff to pass it to him for me , while keeping my identity unknown .
MUAHAHAHA , ingenious .
Okay bye , buggers .

2008-03-30T14:59:00.000+08:00

My stomach feels empty .
And i seem to have lost my mood for everything .
Ohmygod i hope im not suffering from the Bipolar thing and end up like Britney .
Okay , so , the weekends really passed by in a flash .
At least there's one thing i can look forward to in school tomorrow !
Yes , it's L !
And , oh !
Band practice for secondary ones will be increased to twice a week , which translates to more daily dosages of L !
MUAHAHAHA .
Okay but of course , thats not supposed to be the main point of the increased practice .
I guess the main point is because the junior band (thats us) will be performing on their own at around the end of the year , without any of their seniors' help !
Adrenaline surge .
Im so worried i'll goof up big time during the performance , because im not really that good at the Euphonium , and i cant hit the high F's and G's .
GOODNESS .
I hope the increased practice will help make me better at the Euphonium .
And i should stop focusing on L all the time during band practice !
FOCUS ON THE IMPORTANT POINTS !
But then again , i cant stop looking at L .
When he gave the commands during the drill , HOLY MACARONI !
I tell you , L really exuded that boyish machoness which got me totally mesmerized .
I sound sick , but i tell you !
Dont knock it till you've tried it !
Even Rebecca noticed the way i kept looking at L .
This infatuation is getting deeper and deeper day by day .
And even before i go to bed , the last thing on my mind will be L .

2008-03-29T21:51:00.001+08:00

Dad just called !
He's at Changi Airport already , hahaha !
Anyway !
It's almost ten .
I reckon the concert is over .
I wonder how did L's performance fare .
But im pretty sure the band was great , as usual !
I cant help wondering if L's hungry or not , cause they dont serve food there .
So you've got to have a heavy dinner before you attend the concert or perform .
Okay , stop thinking about L .
It's late , go to bed .
GO TO BED , ZENA .

2008-03-29T16:23:00.001+08:00

All i've been doing since i woke up at 10am is counting down the hours till the concert starts .
I want to see L perform .
But i cant .
)=

2008-03-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

HI PEASANTS !
Kidding .
My laptop crashed a few days ago , so i havent really been blogging that much .
Oh wait , did i state that in my previous post which i used my desktop to type up ?
Okay , it wont hurt to repeat it again anyway .
AND SO , my laptop went for a reformat , and all the pictures of my hubbies are GONE , AHHHHHHHHHH .
Bloody Hell .
But , of course , im happy i found out L's birthday !
But i feel so stupid because i do not even dare say a word of "Hi" to L .
So most of the time i end up feeling sorry for myself whenever i see Sally or other girls talk to L , oh man .
But baby is so nice to have consoled me by saying L was rushing home and talking to them other girls because of PowerPuff Girls !
How sweet my baby is !
I LOVE YOU BABY !
Tomorrow's the 10th year anniversary concert .
Sad to say , im not going .
And because im not going , im going to have to miss the chance of getting to see L performing with the band .
And L is always sitting at the front , because he plays the Oboe !
What a downright pity it is .
But Maria honeybunny said she's probably try to get a picture of L , hahaha , so sweet of her to have suggested doing so .
Love you , honeybunny !
And never be down okay !
You've got 1E4 behind you , all the way !
L .
>:|
I want to say "Hello" , and yet i cant .
I just dont have the guts to do so .
I even had to ask from Aliff , our class senior , for L's email .
Sigh .
I think im so dumb to go through all this , for one guy whom i doubt is even aware of my existence .
Am i dumb ?
Do respond through my tagboard if you have an opinion , regarding this issue !
Oh ,i sound like Auntie Kelly from the TEENAGE magazine , LOL !
Okay yeah , so , yesterday , during CPE , i was writing a short essay , all about L !
I could go on and on , but i just stopped at about 3/4 of a page , lest i got caught for doing something irrelevant with the ongoing lesson .
I like L alot .
Im even trying to make myself walk with a perfect posture like L , and making myself like noodles even more , because it seems like noodles are L's favourite food .
And everyday i'll be finding all means and ways to look at L .
GOOD HEAVENS , I . AM . SERIOUSLY . DUMB .
And then i'll get so upset when i see him with Sally (the other secondary one girl whose full of guts to actually approach L and likes L too) , or when he's with another girl .
Ahhhhhhh , dumb , dumb , dumb .
And i know the chances of L liking me is highly impossible .
Lemme make a quick emphasis on those two words again , HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE .
Okay , if i were to look at it in an optimist' point of view , chances are slim .
I dont know , i dont know , i dont know .
I dont know why im so infatuated with L .
I dont know why i cant get him out my head .
I dont know why i cant stop wondering what he's thinking .
I dont know why i cant stop bombarding myself with questions as to why L doesnt even notice me at all .
I dont know why i refuse to let Matthio ruin my determination once and for all .
And i dont know why , of all the guys in the school , it must be L whom i happen to carry a torch for .
Will L just run away and leave me heartbroken when i finally confess to him one day ?
Will i even be able to muster up the courage to confess to him ?
My brain is a totally wreck now .
My brains are not and unable to function as properly as it should , as my mind's now all about L , no matter how i try to push him out of it .
And practically the whole post is about L , i reckon .
Okay , i dont reckon .
I just know it will be .
WHY , OH WHY , MUST I LIKE L SO MUCH .
Can you bloody wake yourself up , Zena .
L doesnt know you .
YOU'VE NOT EVEN TALKED TO L BEFORE .
Okay maybe you did , but it was all about CCA matters !
WHEN HAVE YOU EVEN HAD AN OFFICIAL CONVERSATION WITH L , LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS .
Why cant you just give up , on knowing that it's highly possible that L isnt even aware of your existence .
Why must you fail to let Matthio demoralize you and make you stop liking L .
Why are you determined to like L till the day the graduates from school .
Why why why .
Why are you going through all these for someone who's practically a stranger .
Why are you stupid , huh huh huh .
Why cant you just say a simple word of "Hello" to him , and not feel sorry for yourself all the time .
Why must you happen to be shy around L , of all the people to be shy around .
SHIT .
My mind is filled with Why's regarding L .
Im hopeless , and yet i dont want to do anything about it .
All i know is i want to carry a torch for L .
All i know is , i like L so much .
And i dont plan to do anything about it .

2008-03-26T17:42:00.000+08:00

Had Math remedial today !
Sat with Sheela baby , hahaha .
AND SOME IDIOT BLOODY TORE MY "LEONARD!" PAPER , _|_ !!!!
Let me catch you and you're DEAD MEAT .
Okay , yeah so , im very glad i had remedial , because it really clarified lotsa my doubts about Algebra .
It's numbers and alphabets everywhere , just like alphabeto pasta !
Sigh .
Will i ever be able to stop thinking about L for just one second ?
No matter what im doing , besides sleeping , L always seems to be on my mind .
And , and , i was looking out of the window throughout the whole History test because i kept looking out for L .
In fact , i'd so every 10.05am when im in class , because thats the time of the upper secondary students' recess .
And as usual , without fail , I would see L with girls .
Okay , so i do get jealous and pout like a kid .
But what else could i possibly do ?
I dont even have the courage to look him in the eye and say a simple word of "Hello" .
What a lozr , hahahaha .
Burn in Hell , Zena !
Weren't you always so self-confident .
Why are you always this way when it comes to being around L ?!
Alright , maybe im just uber shy around L .
And as far as i know , there are currently two other girls who like L too .
And what's such a downer is that they've had an official conversation with L , but not me . .
And one of the other two girls is of the same age as me ?!
And she's not even shy to approach L and strike up a conversation with him , gosh .
Bloody failure , Zena Cheong Feng Yee .
So , what could i possibly do ?
Yes , you've got it right .
Secretly try to have a glimpse of him whenever i can , and have to go through all that jealousy just to secretly like him .
And Matthio never fails to demoralise me whenever he tells me i couldnt possibly stand a chance with L , and that he'd run away from me the moment i confess to him .
. . .
Maybe Matthio's right .
And maybe he's not .
Sometimes it really boggles my mind .
Like , well , i may not exactly be a world-class beauty , and then again , im not exactly ugly !
So , like , i just dont get it .
And i'd think that Leonard's one of those guys who prefer fugly girls .
LOL !!
Although im not saying im hoping he'd be those superficial cads who go for looks .
BUGGER , _|_ !
He walks so quickly i can only manage to get a 2-3 second glimpse of him whenever i see him walking down the stairs for his duty during recess .
Either that , or he'd be running !
If it's neither one , then he'd be taking his time to walk down the stairs with them other females .
How i wish L could just say a word of "Hello" to me .
And when i saw L running so happily down the stairs today , at about 3.15pm , i couldnt help assuming he has a girlfriend and that he was running after her .
So baby kept telling me he was just happy that school's out for him .
Well , i guess so . . ?
Gah !

2008-03-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

Nothing much is up today .
Im getting more and more caught up with L as the days pass .
Im also getting more and more upset as the days go by , because im so scared i do not even dare talk to him , even when i have the chance to .
All i ever manage to do is to secretly find means and ways to get a glimpse of him whenever i can .
I mean , yeah so , even though i always declare he's mine , i truly know he isnt .
Well , like , even though he isnt , must it always be the females he hangs out with ?!?!
And Farhan almost made me cry because he bloody pulled a trick on me which made me so jealous , LOL _|_ !!
I guess this is what i have to go through if im going to want to secretly carry a torch for him till the day he graduates .
Ah well .
I guess there's nothing much i can do , except to find a time to actually try and say a simple word of "HI !" , which i doubt i even dare to do so .
GO ZENA !
Im sure the day he notices me will come .
And , AHAHAHA , i couldnt help smiling all the way when i woke up this morning , due to the fact that i had such a wonderful dream about L , (!!!!)
It was so , *eyes go all glazed* .
Whenever i think about it , i cant help smiling like i just won a billion dollar lottery !
Especially the part where we got so close and he hugged me AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
Even though im clearly aware that it's all but a dream , i still want it to come true .
I hope im able to get a picture of L during band camp in June !
I must confess to L somewhere around next year .
And Diane is BEAVER BEAVER BOM BOM !

2008-03-24T18:48:00.000+08:00

It has not even been 24 hours since my dad left for China and im already missing him .
Before he left , i was acting tough , kept telling myself whats 7 days with Dad away .
But i guess i was wrong to have thought that way .
Im such a complete wuss .
Just 3 minutes before he left , my tears were dripping down my cheeks already .
I cant even hold back my tears .
So i had to secretly wipe my face with my shirt and pretended to drink water , so i wouldnt be caught crying .
There's nothing wrong with crying .
It's just that , when i look at my Dad and cry , they'll keep coming .
I dont know if its because of the insecurity i feel when my dad's not around , i couldnt sleep for the whole night .
Sucks , dude .
Especially when it worsens my eyebags .
Sigh .
Band was a bummer )=
Today was a complete bummer .
L never seems to notice me at all , does he ever ?
And he seems to be so popular amongst the girls .
Ohmygod what chances do i even stand ?!?!

2008-03-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

My trip to West Mall was a wasted one .
My bunny bag was out of stock , SHIT .
Damn them buggers who bought my bunny bags !
My mood always gets bad whenever i go out .
Perhaps im just destined to stay home all the time , hahaha .
I'd enjoy that , truthfully speaking .
Ah well !
Thanks , wenjie !
For always trying to build up that confidence and me and also for always lending me that ear of yours .
YOU'LL GROW TALLER TOO !
Just dont be a sissypop and wear heels wherever you go .

2008-03-23T09:18:00.000+08:00

School starts about 24 hours later and i've yet to do any of my homework .
Since there's only Science (couldnt be bothered) , Math and English , i'll just finish down the sums and just rush through the summary writing .
Uh , as for Chinese , im not even sure if there's homework .
Seriously speaking , it's quite a nice surprise to know that some of you guys actually bother to read my entries .
Because it feels like someone actually bothers to want to know about my life and stuff like that , because all i ever type up about is about my drab life .
Although sometimes , like what Sheela baby told me , i can blog about the most random things , hahahahahahaha .
At least there's one thing about school i can look forward to tomorrow !
I can see L , and during band practice , i can see even more of L !
Im so excited i even fantasize about the day i confess to L .
And my mind goes all dreamy , LOL .
And then i'll wonder about his reaction towards my confession .
Would he say he'll accept me and hug me ?
OHMYGOD !
I get so so excited whenever i think about L .
And fantasizing about him keeps me happy !
Well , if fantasizing about him is the closest thing i can get , then im all up for it .
At least , if i cant see him , im able to picture him in my mind .
Sometimes i feel like im a dumb-o who's indulging in a one-sided love thing , hahaha .
But if i say i feel very happy doing this , am i still counted as a dumb-o ?
I guess we should all do what makes us really happy !
Don't you agree ?!
Oh , and not forgetting , happy birthday mom .
Even when it's your birthday , all you want to celebrate it with is anyone but me .
Whatever .

2008-03-21T11:21:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to blog about , yet .
Im feeling hungry , and i've got to go get a second pair of school shoes later on .
Today's Good Friday .
Hope everyone enjoys it .
And i have to seriously go get that close-up on Leonard picture from Madam Rabia .
So i can at least have L to look at during long-term holidays .
I seriously need to dream of L .

2008-03-20T17:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder what will become of me in the future to come .
Even though right now im so against smoking and gambling , will i become a compulsive gambler , together with a hardcore smoker ?
Or i will i succeed in becoming a psychologist or a psychiatrist , just like what i'd aspire to be back then .
Im so afraid i'll become all the bad things there are to be .
A drug addict , even ?
Sometimes the future gets so scary .
When you're young , you tend to think you've got it all mapped out , all planned , and you feel you're ready to get down to it and do it all .
But as you grow up , laziness slowly begins to take its toll on you , and gradually you'll find yourself putting it all aside .
Whatever happened to that perfect life plan ?
They're going down the drain , just like this ?
Is that pitiful or what .
I have had so many dreams .
Dreams of becoming a teacher , a veterinarian , a psychologist , a psychiatrist , dreams of becoming a successful woman who'd never be looked down upon .
I'd want to show everyone i'm capable of achieving my dreams , i'd want to show the people who'd look down on me , that i'm more than what they'd perceive of me to be .
I get so determined to do all these , and then i'll start to think .
Given my present state , will i still be able to do so ?
Being the bum i am , with measely F9(s) for Math , and having no drive to study hard , will i still be able to achieve my goals ?
Is it even possible ?
People say , it's never too late .
But then again , you'd think it's too late and you'd lose all the drive , all the motivation .
Sometimes im worried i might just be a failure in life , with no family of my own , no career , and with insufficient savings , and that i'd probably end up in an Old Folk's Home , with nobody in the world to fend for me .
To keep it short , i'd live and die alone .
And then there's my dad .
Im so worried he might just suddenly pass on one day and i'd be all alone in this world , without my dad to provide me with my necessities and to fend for me .
How horrid is that ( ! ! )
Even though my future is in my hands , i still cant help wondering what the future has in store for me .

2008-03-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

Your coming back home or not makes no difference at all .
"Coming back to see me" ?
More like coming back home just to see them , rather than me .
I don't even know why i keep allowing myself to get affected by our unfairness .
And sometimes i get so angry at you , all i can do is secretly cry , face down on the pillow .
What d'you think i am ?
Some three-year-old kid who'll immediately be appeased once you say you'll bring me out for a meal at Sakae's ?
Don't kid me , or try to be daft , mom .
You know that's not it , and it never will work that way .
You have no idea how much you've hurt me , wounded me .
Because of all that you've done , i'm now just a sad kid whose childhood has been deprived of , that's all .
Your decions to leave this family and go out to work back then has turned you into a selfish monster , do you not know that ?
Maybe they don't see things the way i do , but at least daddy does , and he understands , and he tells me it's okay even if i don't have you , because i still have a parent , and that's him .
And you know what , even though you've hurt daddy so much with what you've done , he still tells me he wants me to love you , as much i want to love him .
Daddy still wonders how you're doing out there , and what will be of you , when you're old , jobless , and without a family .
Who would take care of you then , he'd ask .
The Old Folk's Home ?
Do you really never notice that daddy still cares about you ?
And that i want my mother back bad too ?
It's okay if you've never really showered me with motherly love before .
But at least , when i know that you'll still bother to come back and visit me once in a while , and shower me with genuine care and love , i'll very much be able to overlook all that you've done .
But do you ever ?
No , you don't , and you didn't .
You never bother asking me if im feeling well or not .
Just like earlier on , when you came home , and i was having a terrible flu , you didn't even care .
You even commented that you're afraid i'd pass the flu to you .
And you never bother asking about my grades , and everything .
Even if i did , you'll be giving me that , "wah , very good lor" response , and i'll be thinking , is that all you have to say ?
Even i do score 8 points for my O's , will be that all that you will ever have to say ?
Or will you not even care less , as to how i fare in my studies ?
Am i really such a speck of dust in your eyes .
Do you even look upon me as your daughter , seriously .
Have you idea what i've been through , all these years ?
Especially when my life is always affected by the mother factor .
I realise my friends are closer to another always , because their moms are always close to one another .
I realise im always jealous , whenever people flaunt their mothers in my face .
Whenever i feel like telling you how i feel , i always get all tough and act like nothing's gonna get me down .
It's hard on me .
But i'm still glad you bothered to come back to bring me to the doctor's , back then when i was about 6 , when i was having some severe vomitting .
Thanks , for no matter how little you've done for me , all these while .

2008-03-17T19:56:00.001+08:00

Band was tiring today , especially the footdrills .
To make it worse , we had to do our footdrills under the sweltering hot sun !
Is it me or is the temperature rising every single day .
Or could that be the result of the atrocious global warming .
Ohmygod we must do something about this .
But no matter how determined i am to do something about global warming , i end up doing nothing .
So in the end , it's all big talk .
Well , at least , for me .
I think i didnt make much progress blowing the Euphonium earlier on .
I kept messing up , especially with tongue part .
My co-ordination is bloody lousy , i cant even blow and move my tongue .
You suck , miss .
As for the notes , i kept on mixing up C and D !
I just couldnt get it in my head , after all the reminders from my seniors .
Sigh .
Ah well , i'll just have to work harder .
And i went very crazy during the last few minutes of Band practice , because L finally arrived !
And L happened to sit right beside Sharleen , Rebecca , Max , Jane and Me , who were sitting together at one corner of the music room .
I kept sneaking glances at L , heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
And i told Rebecca about my decision about carrying a torch for L until he graduates from school .
Which will be about , er , 19 months from now .
L !
Weee , L !

2008-03-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

Term 2 of school begins tomorrow !
And im still being a bum , not wanting to leave the computer and complete the rest of the holiday assignments .
I guess i'll just have to complete the newspaper clipping later on , around , early evening ?
As for the concept maps assigned by Mr Oh , pfft .
Im just too lazy to complete them >:| !
Ah well , i'll just decide on that later on .
Actually , im quite glad that school's finally starting !
Holidays are great , but also terrible .
Im always such a couch potato that i cant help gaining weight over the holidays .
So , when there's school , there's Mr Ben .
And when there's Mr Ben , there's Phys Ed and CPE .
And when there's either Phys Ed or CPE , there'll be either the 2.4km or 1.6km run .
And when there're the runs , it spells good for me !
Because by running , i'll be able to shed some weight .
SO , last night , while i was tossing and turning in bed , i made two resolutions .
One : 10 sets of 10-second leg raises + 50 sit-ups (to be finished within about , 90seconds) + 50 - 100 sets of crunches , EVERY NIGHT , before i drift off to dreamland .
Two : Make it a point to think positive and enjoy running , no matter how tough the going gets , and also to pass , even if it means having an aching body for one whole week .
AND , YES , IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY TO COMPLETE THESE TASKS , but , of course , i will keep training myself , and in maybe a week , i'll be able to get used to it , and hopefully , after a period of time , i'll be able to shed some weight !
GO , ZENA .
And with the motivation of my hubbies , i will definitely try my best to make these resolutions come true .

2008-03-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

Nothing much is up .
Have yet to complete the two concept maps assigned by Mr.Oh(!) as our Science holiday assignment .
And am watching Taiwan dramas these days .
I can almost swear the fighting scenes are over-dramatic .
And some of them actors can't act for nuts .
NUTS TO YOU ALL .

2008-03-12T12:52:00.000+08:00

Daddy's little girl at heart

I figured i rely on and need my dad very much , HAHAHA .
And i also figured i love my dad alot !
In a way , im quite glad my mom left me when i was young .
Because of her , i got to bond with my dad , HEEHEE .
And i've never resented the fact of doing so !
All the years i've spent close with my dad have made me realized how very fortunate i am to have such an uber father , oh my god .
May God bless the others .
Even though he does reprimand me at times , give me a good whacking , or a two hour lecture , i do understand it's because he cares .
I feel so stupid for getting all riled up over my dad the other time , where he kept insisting on accompanying me to town .
In fact , IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU , LOSER (/middle finger) !
I should never have let going out with you affect the relationship between me and my dad .
And i should never have let going out with you affect the friendship between me and my close friends .
What a fool you were , missssssss .
Oh my god im an A-grade fool , -___-"
So stop forcing me to go out all the time , loser .
(Okay that's abit harsh and i don't really mean all the vulgarities i type , at least , sometimes i dont .)
So what if you enjoy going to town and cybercafes ?
I dont .
So stop trying to make me go just so you can have fun .
Im not a marionette doll , you macaroni .
If you enjoy going out , THEN DO SO , DUH .
Why must you keep insisting that i tag along .
If i say i dont want to , then i DONT WANT TO .
So stop whining to me through the phone .
And staying at home being a top rated anti-social bloke is my lifestyle , and has always been , and i wont change it for any measely human being with the same status as i hold .
Since you cant adhere to my lifestyle , and i refuse to adhere to yours , why should we even continue doing this .
Oh actually , i've already regarded things as OVER since about a month ago .
So like , yeah man .
So get a life and quit forcing me to go out all the time .
Cant stand beggars (beggars in this context , that is) .
(And okay , once again , i repeat , i dont really mean everything i say , regarding the harsh words .)
Okay and , im sounding like a bitch who's unwilling to acknowledge a relationship right here .
Whatever the case is , as long my message gets across to everyone .
And my English has been a little down these days , so whatever mistakes i make in this entry , do pardon me , thanks .
So i repeat , for that particular loser and also maybe the rest , STOP FORCING ME TO GO OUT AND I MEAN IT WHEN I TURN YOU DOWN .
Okay , much better !
Okay like , how did talking about my closeness with my dad jump to this topic .
Ah well , like i was saying , i love my dad !
ALL ANTI-FANS OF BENN CHEONG HOE WAN , BURN IN HELL AHAHA .

Not that im very self-conscious , but , just to clear all misunderstandings , i am not a bitch who's refusing to acknowledge a relationship i seem to be . But if you persist in assuming so , then , whatever @ you , just continue doing so . If you happen to know which loser im referring to , and just in case you want to know more , then i'll just sneak you a small piece of news right here . We havent been too active for the past one month , like we havent been talking or so for like a month , so it's natural and right for me to take it that things are over , just as i've stated in the entry . So , uh , like , if you've got anything you'd like to ask me , you can just contact me . And im pretty sure you , who is reading this , should know how to contact me . Yeah so , -END- .

2008-03-09T09:56:00.001+08:00

It seemed to me that my ParisHilton (♥) was upset last night .
So as a Romeo , her Romeo , i mean , i couldnt possibly bear watching her being upset .
SO , i came up with a Britney-inspired song , Piece Of Romeo , just for her !
It goes like this :

I'm Mr American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still gonna put pictures of my derrière in the magazine
You want a piece of me [x2]

I'm Mr good media karma
Another day, another woman
Guess I can't see the harm
In womanizing and being a romeo
And with a kid on my arm(ohmygod thats wrong)
I'm still an exceptional romeo
You want a piece of me

I'm Mr. "Lifestyle of the irresistible"
(you want a bite outta me)
I'm Mr. "Oh my God that Romeo's Shameless"
(you want a piece of me)
I'm Mr "Oh my god that Romeo's so hot"
(you want a slice of me)
I'm Mr "I've got a hell lot of women"
(you want a chunk of me)

I'm Mr. "You want a chunk of me"
Tryin' and pissin' me off
Well get in line with the paparazzi
Whose flippin' me off
Hopin' I'll cause some scandal
End up settlin' in court
Now are you sure you want a chunk of me?
You want a slice of me

I'm Mr. "Most likely to get on the TV for hitting on girls"
When seen walking down the streets , no , for real
Are you kiddin' me?
No wonder there's panic in the men's world
I mean, please
Do you want a chunk of me ?

HAHA . I LOVE YOU , PARIS , SMOOCH !
(hover over icons)

2008-03-08T12:34:00.000+08:00

Axl is so so hot back in the eighties !
I'd die to have a Axel lookalike hug me (♥) !
Anyway , holidays are finally here !
Agenda of the day :
Finish about 1/3 of the assigned work to do .
I think i'll probably get on with doing Ms Chan's letter-writing assignment first .
And then , uh , maybe do the fornightly newspaper clipping assignment .
I so dont want to do Math )=
It's algebraic expressions everywhere .
And i dont get what Ms Joyce meant by writing our answers on that sheet of paper !
Ohmygod , doomed .
Ah well , i'd better do some of the homework to please daddy , (Lozr) .
Seems like my daddeh is quite a fast learner .
How he's calling me Lozr all the time , after me doing so to him .
And i laughed like mad when he showed me some of the Yoga moves he learnt from that Yoga centre , LOL !
Acting cute all day long , my old man .

2008-03-06T19:08:00.000+08:00

My , oh my !
I just read Shaddie hunneh (♥)'s latest entry and i felt so very touched .
It also made me want to talk about all the close friends i've made online .
And when i say close , i mean it .

Pamela (♥) :
As for this Pamela of mine , i've got so many things to say about her , about us . Our friendship has been amazing . Even right now , when i think about it , i feel she's my best friend whom i see everyday , rather than just an online friend i've made , through AuditionSEA , through fate , through our destinies . We met in AuditionSEA on the 16th of April in the year 2007 , which was last year . We started out as mere acquaintances who both shared the same interests . Which was thinking that Chan , the NPC , was a hottie-hot-hottie . And we both happened to fell sick on that particular day , so we were excused from school and were allowed to stay home and jam the computer . Now , whenever you need an example of affinity , or fate , you can take us both for instance . And so added each other as buddies , and gradually , from strangers , we became friends , close friends , buddies , and the best of friends . My dear Pamela has always been a very interesting person , as well as amiable and humourous . And because of her great sense of humour , we never fail to hit things off , and because of her amiability , we never fail to get close with each other (not in the lesbo sense) . Because i know she means so much to me as a friend , i look upon cheering her up as my rightful duty , whenever i see she's down . And it's a duty i really enjoy doing , cheering her up . Even though these days we've been really busy with schoolwork , i never fail to miss her . Know why ? Cause she's my Pamela :) I know friendships are fragile , and they end easier , than they are formed . But even though knowing that one day our friendship will end , i would want to take this opportunity to cherish every second of it , and not let go of it , till the very end . You are one of the missing pieces in my life .

Weiny (♥) :
This is my dearest Weiny (skeettles + frankerz + weinerz = sweet hot dog) , and our meeting was really fortuituous . And im also thankful for it . I had happened to send a whisper to the wrong person , and i guess , that was what brought the two of us together . Weiny , she makes me worry for her almost all the time . I worry she might self-mutilate , i worry she might do silly things , i worry she might be unhappy . But most of the time , i like to believe she's my great great sensible friend , and that she'd not be so insensible as to just let all her friends , including me , down . What i mean is , her doing silly things and perhaps end up disappearing from this world . Weiny has always been such a great friend , such a great older sister to me . She never fails to advise me on what to do , whenever im saddled with problems . Serious as she can be , she's always such a fun joker to be with . She comes up with these incredibly crack-me-up jokes , and they never fail to evoke the laughter in me . Weiny's importance to me , as a friend , is as much as of Pamela's . These two ladies , they just mean so much to me , i really dont know how to express myself in words . Im sorry , Weiny , that sometimes im not much of a help when youre down . But i promise i'll try whatever i can , to make you happy once again , because i like you even better that way ! And again , this is one amazing friendship which i'll never forget . My cheesy darling , I'll pray that your life will be a wonderful one . I love Weiny . And you , darling , are also a missing piece in my life .

Sheryl (♥) :
Sheryl , Sheryl , Sheryl . What could i possibly say about you . You're ever so sweet , good at cheering me up and getting hyped up with me . Do you know , you're also one of the longer lasting friends i've made through the internet . And you mean alot to me as well . I'll have you know i wouldnt care for the world , if you happen to be in the obese side . I wouldnt care for the world , if you dont have the looks of Audrey Hepburn . Because i love you , for who you are , and for that golden heart of yours . Im really sorry i occasionally get so riled up and emotionally unstable , and sometimes causing me to lose my temper at you . But you always seem to understand and never lose your cool with me . Except sometimes when i do realize i've gone overboard with teasing you , that you did . Im really sorry for all my imperfections . I've never really been the greatest friend in the world to you . Maybe to you i really am not , but i'd like you to know , you , as well , mean alot to me , and that i cherish you . And , you're perfect just the way you are , Sheryl . Never change for the world :) You just completed a part of my life , like a puzzle piece .

Wanyu (♥) :
My lover girl . Have you any idea how much i've missed you during all these time . You , and sonny , have been ever so supportive of me , of everything i do . You've always been so saccharinely sweet , and such a great great friend . I remember , the time i got banned , i felt so depressed i cried , i even wanted to give up playing the game , but you and son , continued supporting me , and even tried all ways to come make me feel better , and console me . I've never told you before , how much i really appreciate what you've done , and all that you've done . They've been important to me , and they're what's kept me going . I feel really sorry we've never really got the time to spend time together like we used to in the past , because we're all so busy nowadays . But i'll ensure you , that you're still dear to me , and will always be . I love you very much , lover . And you've just filled up another part of my life .

And there are still so many people i've yet to make a dedication to . So many . But i hope you guys do know , you all still mean alot to me , no matter what . (♥)

2008-03-02T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hi worshippers of mine !
Meet my new comrades :
Beaver (Diane ♥)
Weeper (Wenjie ♥ Maoshi)
Nipple (Besteh , ♥ !)
And not forgetting , myself .
Although i cant decide on which name i should use for myself , cause of my greatness .
Should i use Uber or Winner .
I think Uber's great , dont you think so , :D

2008-03-02T10:22:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA .
I've finally changed my layout once again .
Although my font's abit loserish , but my tagboard's width is now uber !
So there shouldnt be a problem with its size now , right .
Hubbie-wubbies (♥) !

2008-03-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

I cant believe Ms Low is actually making us do some "Pen-pal wanted" advertisement for English class !
Makes us look like a bunch of desperadoes !
And the korean drama My Girl is making me so heartbroken .
Well , actually , im getting heartbroken over Lee Jun Ki .
It's really sad , when that someone you love is right infront of you all the time , and yet you cant have him/her .
And i remember my dearest granddaughter HweeTeng was crazy over Lee Jun Ki , hahaha .
I really miss my friends from primary school .
Even though the friends i have in my secondary school are wonderful , but i still do miss and love my old friends very much .
Speaking of which , i'd really to apologise to HweeTeng , HuiYing , ZiXiang , all you guys .
Im really sorry im always procrastinating and standing you guys up , whenever we've agreed to meet up somewhere someday .
And i feel my doing this has really made me drift quite far apart from you guys .
Im really sorry , guys .
And to think you guys were such great friends .
Once again , im sorry , really i am .
Although im not sure if we'll ever be able to meet up together again .
I do remember how we'd get together and talk about lots of stuff , and sing several chinese songs , like Tank's songs , ahaha .
Well .
I kinda this would happen when we reached the secondary age .
Kinda precedented , actually .
Just want you guys to know , i'll never forget you all .
I love you guys !
And believe me when i say so , because i really do (♥) .

2008-02-29T17:42:00.000+08:00

I seriously have no idea why does Michael Jackson wants to become a white , in terms of the colour of the skin .
I personally feel he looks much better with his original self , rather than looking like some horrific outerspace alien who had just landed on Earth to conquer all human beings .
I was watching the 80's Rewind on MTV and i happened to watch the music video for his hit , Beat It .
It's a real great song .
And , his voice , his dance moves , they're all so amazing .
Why'd he even choose to go for some dumb surgery just so he could look like a white ape whose nose drops off anytime and at anywhere .
It's such a waste .
And i think there was a rumour being circulated around that he actually committed some paedophilic crimes .
Im not really sure as to whether there's such a word as paedophilic , but , yeah , you get what im driving at .
Even my Dad agrees he looks ever so much better when he was still his original self .
Well , maybe the thought of "white supremecy" just so happened to get to him too much .
My daddy's right .
We should never change the way we look , because that's just how God has made us .
Why get so self-conscious over your looks and go under the knives and shit like that .
Okay actually im like very self-conscious over my looks .
But i do like to believe that beauty is but skin deep .
So , even if you have the looks of the world's top model , without a heart , you're but a piece of shit .
So work on developing your personality and not on your photos .

2008-02-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

It has been such a long time since i last blogged !
And i really missed shaddie hunz , skeettles , cheryl baby , my sonny , sheryl darling and quite a handful of others !
Actually , part of the reason i was away from the virtual world for such a long period of time was that i was very busy with schoolwork .
But the other bigger part is that my sister and brother were too busy hogging the laptop i had absolutely no chance to even touch it .
How sad .
So i spent all my free time watching the television and reading The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari and To Sir With Love .
These two books are really good !
Yeah so , actually i've got lots to type up about .
But then again , im very lazy to .
Oh , and , i finally finally finally made it through my 2.4km run with a timing of less than 18 minutes !
Ohmygod !
In fact , i finished it within 16minutes or so , HAHAHA OHMYGOD UBER .
But i couldnt have done it without my 1E4's support )=
I was so touched by their support i actually cried quite badly when i finished the run .
And i think i made a few others cry too .
So sorry , and really , i love 1E4 Perseverance !
We are so going to kick ass during Sports Day !
Speaking of sports , yesterday the whole of the secondary one level had to go to some basketball complex and give the basketball team who was competing against SengKang Secondary School support .
I went kinda crazy over cheering them on .
I think even though the opponents were leading by 10 baskets , i think my school's basketball team did really well !
A round of applause for them !
Well , im really enjoying school .
And i actually thought the secondary life would be horrendous .
Maybe i was wrong .
But it was my wonderful class which proved me wrong .
And of course , my wonderful teachers !
Speaking of teachers , i flunked Math really badly , HAHA .
Like , 16/50 .
And when i converted it to /100 , i actually had a measely score of 32 .
. . .
But , ah well , i'll do my best !
And im getting so crazy over the Korean drama My Girl AHAHA .
But nothing , absolutely nothing beats my hubbies .
/HUGS & /KISSES TO MY HUBBY-WUBBIES .

2008-02-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

Hello .
I sometimes feel im such such a jerk-ass .
An insensitive jerk-ass , who gives no shit about the feelings of others .
I feel i suck at times .
And people'd probably come telling me i suck , almost all the time .
Which i dont mind hearing , because i myself think that's the case .
I think someone commented on me being too proud , behind my back .
Usually i'd flare up when someone does that , but then , i thought , maybe i was being too proud ?
Okay actually , before i thought of that , i kinda thought that girl was a downright loserific no-lifer .
And of course , i managed to get a grip .
Well , maybe it's because ive got good reasons to be proud of , and im not a loser who hangs my head down low all the time , looking so lost .
And er , no offence to people who do that all the time .
Well , at least im proud to be who i am .
(Although sometimes i get a little too egocentric .)
But the point is , i dont understand why some people have such low self-esteem sometimes .
They let it get to them so much that they're looking down on themselves all the time , thinking they're better off dead and stuff like that .
I think they shouldn't really do that .
I mean , everyone's born the same .
It all lies in your mindset , and what you want to think of yourself .
I seriously have no idea why some people , just because they feel they look ugly , they start treating it like an end-of-the-world catastrophe and then let it all get into their heads and start behaving like a tibetian hermit .
Okay , wait , i used to dread going out because i felt so inferior too , but , okay , the point is , we shouldn't do this to ourselves .
We , as humans , should go out there and enjoy life like we should be doing !
Not staring at the mirror all day , chanting "im so fugly" about 300 times a day .
That's so not going to help make you look better !
I guess , maybe the least you could do was to build up your self-confidence , get out there , smile , and breathe in this wonderful world !
The Earth is rumoured to come to an end soon , so imagine , what if the day happens to be a week later !
Won't it be such a pity , as you've not managed to fully enjoy this wonderful life like you ought to .
So , the moral here is , start enjoying life , or it'll be far too late to do so .
And as for me , im slowly curbing my anti-social lifestyle and trying to be more outgoing as possible .
But of course , my Dad still has to drag me out most of the time .
Live life to the fullest !

2008-02-17T10:12:00.000+08:00

Could someone please come online now .
Im in need of a listening ear .

2008-02-17T08:34:00.001+08:00

This is for Shaddie , my ParisHilton ♥

This is for Santarina , my sexbuddy/baby ♥

These two are for my dear baby , Cheryl ♥

2008-02-16T16:05:00.000+08:00

I want to dedicate this paragraph to Weiny , my qinaidez (♥) .
HI WEINY !
Im really glad that i've found you , because you're always there for me to pour out my woes to , and you're always able to relate to everything i say .
And when you're able to do so , you'll always advise me , as to whether im doing the right thing or not , and stuff like that .
You know , sometimes i even feel like you're my elder sister !
And then you'd always get so hyped up with me , and be it whether im down or you're down , each of us would try to find ways to cheer each other up .
I feel i can get very comfortable when talking to you .
I have so many things to say to you , but i can't seem to think of any to type out !
But i just want you to know that , I LOVE YOU ! ♥

Once again , i ♥ skeettles !
And so , after my little entry about Troy and Nicholas yesterday , i got on to doing more thinking , and , uh , well , lets just say i was able to come up with a conclusion , not that it's regarding Troy or Nicholas , for that matter .
I told stude and skeettles about it , and , yeah , i guess the answer's pretty obvious .
I might seem so heartless .
But this is what i think , i really want .

2008-02-15T18:48:00.000+08:00

I sometimes feel Troy had affected me so much , i cant even love anyone properly anymore .
I dont like the way music affects my mood .
When i hear a certain song , my heart keeps on changing .
And i have a tendency of lying through my teeth , be it about Troy or Nicholas .
Maybe the both of them were really too big a blow for me to take , that im losing all my confidence of loving someone right anymore .
I recently read my notebook , again .
And if you dont know which notebook im talking about , it's the one which was written to the last page , with all the contents about Troy and AuditionSEA .
And i saw how Troy affected my every word , my every paragraph .
If he made me really happy , i'd easily write out three whole pages full of nothing but sweet-nothings .
And i realized even when he made me very upset , it seemed to be filled with words of heartbreak , rather than words of anger .
And i couldnt help laughing at my own silliness .
How i actually brought myself to like him that much .
But i can tell you one thing for sure , i felt really happy .
Almost every little thing he said made me smile and laugh like an idiot , as if i was the happiest girl on Earth .
Even the slightest cold joke he cracked , made me laugh .
And i think i must have liked him so much that i even cried when he sent me that message , saying he's about to go off with some other girl .
At that moment , i felt really betrayed and broken deep down .
I felt as if , Love was so evil and that i'd never believe in it anymore .
But during that period of time , no matter how hard i tried to convince myself into hating him , i always ended up thinking about all the great points about him .
I clearly knew i was supposed to hate him , but i just couldnt brainwash myself with thoughts of hating him .
It was as if even a percent of his Good could cover all 99% of his Bad .
And sometimes i could read and re-read his messages for over ten times .
And my message box with a capacity of 50 messages held 47 of his messages , which i couldnt bear to delete , unless i really had to .
I kept his messages for more than a month .
I felt i could never get sick of them .
And sometimes i'd just think back to all the lovely things he said , and all the goofy questions he asked .
And i'd always remember how he used to always tell me to whack Zourdan with the jackhammer , whenever he bullied me .
I felt he could do no wrong and was perfect in every way .
Until the harsh reality would hit me and sometimes my heart would really ache .
I'd keep thinking and thinking about how he'd be , with another girl .
And i'd get so jealous and upset i'd bury my head in my pillow .
But these were all months ago , like really months .
And i've really learned what it means , to be able to let go of someone , even if it was tough .
For two months , i kept clinging on to the fact that everything would be fine , deluding myself , by constantly telling myself there was a tiny ray of hope .
But when i knew none of these were going to happen , i knew i could only learn to let go of what seemed to be perfect to me in the past .
I used to resent myself for being the idiot i had been .
I'd mock at my own stupidity .
I felt like an absolute moron .
All these , over some online guy ?
What a joke , right .
But it wasnt a joke .
I just happened to like Troy too much .
Far too much .
But when he told me he still liked me as much as before , i'd start to waver , but bring myself back to reality once again , that it was all over .
It was tough , but i managed .
And after a few months later , i thought i really liked Nicholas .
Because every single goofy thing he did , really made me smile and laugh , which i thought no one but Troy could manage to evoke in me .
Of course , not forgetting Tony koykoy & Deming daddy .
And of course im talking about my online male friends here .
Nicholas was , silly but somehow perfect .
He had this really special talent of cracking me up .
And then one day , i guess he jokingly told me he liked me , which , i thought , was kinda caught between "True" and "Untrue" .
But i liked to believe it was under the category of "True" .
Quite silly of me , isnt it .
And as time passed , i started to grow really fond of him .
And i was always contemplating about whether i should confess to him .
But whenever i thought of Troy , i'd be so afraid , especially of rejection .
Best told me , perhaps i was just afraid of loving someone again , because of Troy .
And come to think of it , i think my Best was right , as always .
Best is amazing , he never fails to comprehend me .
Best , thanks for always listening !
I love you !
Yeah , so , one day , silly old me decided to confess to Nicholas .
And i guess his reaction towards me was the cold shoulder treatment .
And that got me really heartbroken and upset .
But after that , i dont know if its because Troy had gotten me too traumatized or i had been deceiving myself far too much , i told myself i was alright .
Which , until now , i dont even know if i meant it , when i assured myself i was alright .
Days later , someone pops up and tells me Nicholas has gone to Vancouver , Canada .
I was shocked and thought it was highly possible that he was lying to this extent just to avoid me .
But then again , when i came to think of it , i thought , maybe it's true ?
Maybe he really did go on a music course somewhere far off in Vancouver ?
Maybe .
I guess i'll never know , will i ?
And so he comes online .
He sounds so different from how he used to sound .
We talked , like two perfect strangers , like mere acquaintances .
And i decided to ask him , if he did like me .
It took 5 minutes for him to give me a reply of "I dont know" .
True enough , i was hurt .
So i thought , "Forget it . I couldnt really bother to know anyway ."
Which , obviously i was deceiving myself about .
But i didnt think he'd reply , and with a positive answer at that .
He said he did like me alot .
And i dont know why , i felt so foolish at that moment .
And my heart suddenly started to waver again , and transmitted a message to my mind , saying that it was undoubtably true that i still do like him .
But fuck it .
I should never bother .
And Valentine's Day still remains as a joke to me , even till now .
And im rather confused , still .

Rebecca !

2008-02-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

Ive been going to Rebecca's house for the past few days (yeah like yesterday and earlier on) , and i really had fun !
I got to know her brothers , Daniel (her older one) and Darryl (her younger one , and i dont know if his name is spelt this way) !
Darryl is 10 and he's very cute , he keeps getting tickled by me .
And , oh , her parents are really really very nice and hospitable !
Even when yesterday was Darryl's birthday celebration and i went , they actually included me in everything , like the photo-taking .
And i felt so welcomed and like i was a part of them .
Like , wow !
It's been such a long time since i felt this way .
And Rebecca and I really laughed like spastics .
So at about 6.20pm , her parents sent me home , and even asked me to visit their house again .
How nice can one possibly get !
And then earlier on , when i went to Rebecca's house after school , her mom actually made spaghetti and actually cooked those mini fish-fillets which was because of me , Rebecca said .
And she even played the guitar with us .
And , oh , did i ever mention that Darryl is like , superb with the drum and Rebecca is really great at playing the Piano and that her Mom is like kinda great at singing those church songs .
Seriously , they're so nice to be with .
Even when i thought i would be putting them out , they actually still welcomed me with like , open arms , ahahaha .
So cool !
She's like , so nice to me , her mom .
I so cant wait to step into Rebecca's house again !

2008-02-13T14:38:00.000+08:00

OWell !
I guess im back from the pissed-off phase !
I guess quite alot of you would like to know what pissed me off .
Well , it's pretty simple .
It was my Dad .
Although when i looked back , i thought i was being kinda silly , getting so riled up over something which , afterwards i thought was a rather small matter .
And it was because he really had my walfare at heart .
Yeah , so , anyway !
The trip to the museum was fun !
Although it did left me quite exhausted , but it was really fun , and an eye-opener .
The Emperor's robe was like , huge O____O
I bet i could squeeze four of me into it , yeah , like , around there i guess .
But the very intricate designs on it were kinda cool , especially the meanings .
Like , there was the ocean , the mountains , the grounds and even the heavens ?
Then on top of all these was the collar , and then it would be the Emperor's head .
It simply means the Emperor was such a powerful figure , people kinda believed he ruled all these .
Well , of course , i reckon the Chinese would know about all these , but then again , im not so sure about the Malays , Indians and maybe Caucasians , so , yeah , here's a little information !
So after that , we headed to the Indian gallery .
The story of that child whose head was replaced with an Elephant's was rather ridiculous , ahaha .
But it did have a trace of logic in it .
And then the statues were the funny part .
I mean , they actually bothered to like , focus on sculpting the nipples !
So i was like telling Farhan about it , since we both have a fetish for porn (although i think Rasyidah is the worst) , and i was like laughing .
And Rasyidah(Sh!tting ^^v) told me that Shafiq(our dearest Raffles) actually used his handphone's camera to zoom in on the nipples !
LOL !!
How quirky can Raffles get ?!
So , i think , these are more of the highlights , and how can i ever forget our guide , Alana !
She was so nice and patient with us , and her eyes are so gorgeously blue !
They were really gorgeous then when i saw her , i immediately told her her eyes were beautiful .
And of course , THE BUS RIDE !
Ohmygod it was seriously crazy .
Especially Sh!tting !
I was like asking the teacher , what did the ladies of the past used when they had their menstruation , because there werent any sanitary napkins around , were there ?
So Sheela(My baby , ♥) , Rebecca(crazy dear friend of mine) and Jane(Mary-Jane ! Except she has this irresistibly sexy voice) were laughing like mad .
So Mr.Tay , the teacher who was put in charge of us , told me that they used cotton and , even dried leaves ?
So i was like asking , wont the blood drip ?
LOL !
I think that really did it .
Then we actually got on to discussing about condoms , and i kinda understood why people of the past had so many children .
Because they didnt have any condoms !
So that increases the chances of them having more babies !
Oh wait , before i continue , i must tell you this was the ride to the museum , not the ride home .
Then behind Rebecca and me was Sacha(sweetheart !) and Raffles !
And we kept teasing them .
Ohmygod , they really look so good together !
and they're so good at the jogs .
I wish i was like them )=
But Raffles is far too scary .
He actually finished 1.6km in like 6minutes .
What the hell , bionical legs ?!
And he was actually smiling and looking so serene throughout the whole run , LOL !!
And Rebecca told me he was also waving to the people who passed by him .
LOL , RAFFLES !
Okay back to the point .
So , yeah , when the bus was like going through some dark underway , Raffles actually held Sweetheart's hand !
How sweet is that !
Oh , i know this scenario is rather common in today's age , but i just thought they looked very sweet .
And you know , the both of them are like always smiling .
And Raffles has these exceptionally goofy smile , like , :B ?
Okay thats rather extreme , LOL !
And now for the bus ride home .
I guess everyone was kinda tired .
So most of the people infront (where i was sitting with Rebecca) were meddling with their handphones while Rebecca and i were snacking .
And so was XiaoJun & XinPei !
Theyre both so funny and dear to me !
Mini Bozz looked so tired , i guess it must be due to the incessant chasing of debtors .
Loanshark , LOL !
And i actually happen to be his Mini Subordinate , ohmygod im a member of the underworld !
Ahahaha wait , did i ever mention Maria's my Honey-Bunny and that i love her very much too ?
/HEART SIGN !
Oh that heart sign's for all the girls in 1E4 !
I'd better say that , lest my Baby gets jealous .
Kidding , LOL !
And i feel i can really communicate with Rebecca !
And she's so easily tickled she laughs at the slightest funny i make .
Great girl , LOL !
Although the chances of her seeing this arent that high , but i'd like her to know she's a very great friend , and she so happens to be the first friend i made in secondary school .
And i was kinda scared when she looked so pale today , during recess .
I thought she was going to faint in the toilet .
But when she came back out from the toilet she looked so damn fine , what the hell , LOL !
But thats great , anyway .
Ahahaha ohmygod , school's fun !
Except for the tests which are coming my way , )=

2008-02-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

I cant believe my own dad insists on bringing me to Bunk , -___-
Okay maybe it's more like a threat , like , if he doesnt go with me , then im not allowed to .
What the _|_ ?
Okay , so , maybe im not a teenager yet , but it's not like i've not been there before , and friends from the net arent all that bad okay , in fact , some of them are what keeps my sanity intact .
You make them sound like some paedophiles waiting to pounce on me .
What's with you , for God's sake .
You make going to DG sound like a sin , what the fucking fuck in the name of Ray Kroc is wrong with you .
Then you allow Zourdan and Zelia to go out like nobody's business but not me .
And furthermore , it's not like im going alone right .
Fucking annoying sometimes .
Next time , if i do so happen to have a child , im seriously not going to raise him/her the way you do .

2008-02-07T09:20:00.000+08:00

I want to revert back to my anti-social lowlife way of living .

2008-02-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

I think i'll be a lowlife and be away from blogging these few days , /heart .

2008-02-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

To my Lover

Hi lover !
Oh yes , i just read your dedication to me in your site , and it's really so touching to see everything you typed .
Do you know that , apart from my son and the others , you've been a source of happiness for me in Audition ?
You were like , always there to listen to me , advise me and also there to crap along with me .
I remember the first time we met , and i kept teasing you about you liking JIN ?
Hahaha , and son was like throwing tantrums , saying he didnt like JIN , LOL !
But of course , whats most important is the progress between the both of us .
Even though we seem to spend a lesser time together nowadays , but i'd like you to know and remember , i'll always love you like i did , for now , and forever .
I LOVE WANYU , ♥ !

To my Sheryl

Hi dear , do you know im so glad to know ive actually managed to make you feel better from those snide remarks made by your classmates about you .
I felt really pissed off when you told me everything that had happened .
And i also felt very lousy because i wasnt able to be there to help you .
So i thought , one day i'll make my way down to your school and fend off all those snide remarks aimed at you , and i will .
Just wait , okay , i promised you i would , so i will .
But before i do that , could you please promise me you'll be strong and not break down because of them brainless twits , because it's just so demeaning and unworthy of .
And just like what i told you , i'll give you big and tight bearhug when i see you !
So right now , your job is to stay strong and not let any of what they say get to you , alright .
I know it's going to be hard , but try .
I'll keep my faith in you , dear .
I love Sheryl , :)

2008-02-02T09:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes , my hubbies are still the best remedy to my sadness .
They never fail to cheer me up .
And of course , there's also my darlingz .
Ha ha ha , I love them .

2008-02-02T08:29:00.000+08:00

Know something ?
I fucking detest favouritism .

2008-02-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOD ! !
CIP Was really really fun today !
Even though it was somehow exhausting , but i really enjoyed it .
At first , i was grouped with BeeChan , ShiCheng and Matthew , but due to the rainy weather , i ended up being in the same group as Gabby , Raffles and Rasin .
And , ohmygod , we're uber , yo .
We were all laughing and laughing non-stop .
We're fun people , :B
LMFAO .
Then Rasin was like doing all sorts of nonsensical but hilarious stuff ?
Like claiming we owned and ruled the world in some Diablo voice ?
And we were climbing up the stairs ?!
He made me laugh so hard i couldnt help smacking him hard on the back till he actually collapsed onto the steps , HAHAHA !
Then Gabby kept singing that "I feel good" song , ?!
And our dear Stamford Raffles was laughing along and being as crazy as us , and when we all took the lift he actually pressed almost all of the levels ?!?!
And when we stopped at a block we actually saw a mini-sized Singapore flag on a door , LOL ! !
So he was like saying , "HEY ! IT WAS I WHO FOUND THAT COUNTRY !"
ROFL .
Ryan and i laughed and laughed till we actually sat in the lift .
And i couldnt remember what silly thing Ryan did , he actually made us laugh and laugh till we all almost collapsed .
And there was also the lift door which actually closed in on Raffles' shoulders , HAHAHA .
But sad to say , by the time we got into the lift , Gabby had actually ran down the stairs to go join the queue already .
So , in a nutshell , today was fun .
And i think , like what Ms.Shidah has commented , it really helped the class bond together , ha ha ha .
And , oh !
I almost forgot to mention that my dear servant RunFa was also escorting us to the other block with an umbrella in his hands .
See how efficient my servant is ?
And im a great master .
I kept laughing and laughing at even the slightest thing , like , even when i looked at Joel(JayChou)'s face i actually burst out laughing !
AND , OHMYGOD RASYIDAH IS REALLY , LOL ! !
SHE KEPT ROLLING THE TISSUE AND STICKING IT UP HER NOSE AND EARS !
LMFAO .
I seriously cant wait for the next CIP programme !
CIP is wonderful !
Except for that Cookie-turned-Jelly Raziq who tried to steal some of my mandarin oranges .

2008-01-31T18:46:00.001+08:00

100 words

free Touch typing

LOL !

2008-01-31T16:45:00.000+08:00

It's Friday , again .
And that means more homework than usual .
I realise a week ends very quickly .
And so does a month and year .
We're scheduled to be going some Community Afternoon programme tomorrow , ha ha ha .
So i'll probably be dragging my feet home due to exhaustion at about , 5 ?
But it does sound kinda exciting , to have to go round giving mandarin oranges to the people residing in the neighbourhood .
And i heard the whole school's going to be doing it together .
How many oranges is that .
And once again , Chinese New Year is approaching .
Whats ironic is that ive been expecting Chinese New Year since last year , and yet i wont be celebrating it this year .
But , ah well , we're still gonna have Pacific Clams and Abalones !
And Math is really starting to attack my brains .
Even Mini.Boss looked so lost !
And im a little slow with the Positive and Negative thing , )= !
Now im beginning to remember why i hated Math .

2008-01-30T16:48:00.001+08:00

Sometimes youre just a pathetic woman in my eyes .
Sometimes i just hate you so much whenever i get reminded of what youve done to me .
Sometimes i despise you so much .
Sometimes i cant wait to severe all ties with you .
Sometimes i cant wait to erase the fact that youre my _ _ _ .
Sometimes i wished you'd burn in hell .
Sometimes i wish you can just get lost from my sight and stop faking concern and love for me .
Sometimes i wish i dont even know you .

2008-01-30T14:17:00.000+08:00

HA HA HA HA HA .
I AM SO SO SO HAPPY .
In fact , i'd be over the moon if it wasnt for the fact that it's a typical hot afternoon right here in Sing-a-pore .
Im officially a member of the school's Symphonic Band !
And so is Rebecca , Max , Jane , Sharleen and quite a few others !
AHAHAHAHA .
And we also learned to throw the Gavelin today , although , i failed to throw a successful one in my multiple attempts .
But it was great seeing my classmates succeed in throwing the Gavelin , ha ha ha .
And Kelvin can really throw that thing .
HAHAHAHA .
And oh yeah , i've got to know quite some characters in class .
Like for example , ShiCheng's Mr.Incredible , Matthew's Superboy.o2 , Raziq's Superboy.o1 / Cookie-turned-jelly , Shafiq's Stamford Raffles / EmoElephant , and Farhan is Father .
Like , holy Father ?
HAHAHA .
Yeah like , im really beginning to enjoy myself in class nowadays .
Except for a certain chairman who's really suffering from a severe case of attitude problem .
Whenever someone tells him to shut up , he asks that person to shut up .
Like , show us an example of shutting up and we'll follow suit ?
And the Gavelin thing is really fun !

2008-01-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

Im seriously sick of running at almost every Phys.Ed period my class has .
Sometimes i wish we can just get on with the NAPFA thing and get this all over and done with , once and for all .
We always do nothing but run , run , and run more .
I admit , maybe i do have a low stamina and i need more practice or training in my running , but that doesnt give you any reason to make me run more .
But im really proud of Sheela baby , for getting better with her run in every Phys.Ed lesson we have , and Maria , for being our female star athelete , ha ha ha .
Oh and , of course , XiaoJun , Asyura and Sacha too .
OhmyLord , they can really get their feets moving .
Ahaha , i know you can do it , Sheela baby :B
Ah well , i guess school can be quite fun at times .
The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari is really a great book , very enlightening .
And it's amazing because everything in the book was by the author , not by some monk .
And the words sounded like that of a wise sage's .
Although sometimes i have to think twice when i read to fully grasp the meaning of what the character is saying .
But nevertheless , it's a great book , ha ha ha .
And it's so fun typing out words with the calculator , ha ha .
And im seriously anticipating the posting of our CCA results , cause im really hoping i'll get into the Symphonic Band , and it's solely because interested in it , and not because of anything else .
Okay , im seriously exhausted .